Early Stages

Awake

I want to say it's true
That I succeed in what I do
I want it to be true
My dream was meant for me to do

I want to able to fly high,
And dream too

But as I look around
Things just seem to get darker
My smiles are brighter
But my wounds have gotten much larger

They ask if I'm OK but,
I don't know

It doesn't seem
This dream could ever be reality
It doesn't seem
That I could soar as high as eyes could meet

But I still try to hold on,
All I can do

I see the blossomed flowers
As they fly out through the breeze
I can't help but wonder
"Why couldn't that be me?"

I see the beauty of what's around me,
But not in me

It seems to me
Like the world has just shut its door
But maybe it was me
Who didn't try to open up

And left the darkness to consume me,
It's prey

I still fight and fall for a dream
That I know I cannot achieve
I still stretch my hands out
Though I know I cannot reach

I don't have the wings to fly,
Touch the sky

I still tightly grasp
The petals that fell off of me
In hopes that maybe one day
I will finally be free

I'll wait for when I can be healed,
I won't cry

~

It's easier to get discouraged, especially when we focus on our weaknesses.

I know this feeling all too well. As someone who is probably a bit overambitious at times with a lot of plans and interests for the future, I can get really bummed out and discouraged because, who's to say that  I'll succeed? Who's to say that this is the path I'm supposed to follow? 

Let's take the example of writing. After all, isn't this what I'm doing right now?

Writing is one of the many things I love and one of the things I would like to continue forward with in my future. It's a great dream of mine (among many others) to have my own published books one day. 

Sometimes, I'm really proud of the pieces I write and get really excited about the ideas I have. But then, other times, I get really discouraged and I don't have as much drive or hope to get anywhere with it.

Take the example of music. I love music and I do play/am learning a few instruments myself. Listening to what others can do, I want to make my want piece one day. Maybe even perform. But whenever the thought even crosses my mind, I immediately think it's a stupid idea. After all, how can someone like me with my personality possibly succeed?

And when other people try to advise you against it, well, shouldn't you just listen to them and your inner doubts?

The point is, you will feel discouraged at times. You will want to give up; it's only natural.   But look around.  Look at the people before you. Even the ones younger than you. Haven't they tried and succeeded? Sure, some persons' degree of success is greater than others but they succeeded.

Look at everyone: the one's better off, worse off and on the same level as you. Let them be your inspiration. Let them be one of your driving forces pushing you forward.

You might be a little battered now. You might be exhausted and hungry with clipped wings and a broken foot but you'll get there. You'll make it through if only you do not give up. Persevere.

Dreams are just that. Dreams; until you make it a reality.

Instead of having to wake up from that dream, wake up into that dream.

Until next time,
Ade Alethra