Early Stages

Blood, Sweat and Tears

The life of luxury
Can sometimes be a bore
The same old, same old
It's become quite a chore

I long for excitement
To have my veins pumping
Instead of being forced to interact
With pompous young brats

I don't know what it was
Something about the day
Maybe the atmosphere in the room
That had changed when you walked in?

It was tense, yet calming and soothing
It was truly something amazing
Then I turned my head to find you
A charming and alluding serpent

You were absolutely stunning
A beauty of your own
Completely unique and different
A sight to behold

You seemed so truly amazing
Yet so deep and mysterious
I was hesitant to go forward
So I admired from a distance

Though you seemed to wander
My gaze remained on you
There was something I just couldn't tell
Something that intrigued me of you

I approached tentatively
I wanted just to taste this sweet honey
Just to test the surface waters
And see what may come after

You were alluring, more so allusive
I couldn't contain myself
I wanted to dive, wanted more
But I had halted myself

It was so very tempting
It was so intoxicating
The glass was right under my nose
Did I have a choice to drink it?

You were ever-changing yet constant
Fierce as fire yet calm as wind
You were colourful, you were everything
You definitely were something

I don't know what spells you cast
To draw so much attention
A spell so strong that I didn't notice
The massive black wings you hid

Sometimes it's the things that's best for you
Are the ones that look the worst
Some the worst of things
Are the ones that look the best

But what about the ones that come wrapped prettily
Disguised as something good and healthy
Despite what is said, if you know it's good
Wouldn't you indulge without second guess?

You were something favourable
You lit up the room
Your eyes showed galaxies
Our kind had never knew

I wanted a taste
I wanted just a bit
So I raised it to my lips
And I took a sip

I think it was my mistake
To show any interest
Now I'm wrapped around your finger
With no means of escape

No matter how I try
No matter where I go
I'm held back by your bond
I've nowhere to go

They try to help me
Try to knock you out of my system
But nothing can help me
You're too strong

You tainted my purity
You stained my innocence
I can't focus
All I see is you

You shot through my heart
You ripped me apart
You injected you poison
Until it spread though all my parts

Now I wield your arrow
Yet point away from you
Instead I shoot at anyone
Who think they can come near you

You have two little horns
And devilish wings
Surrounded by a light
That blinded me from it

I can't control myself
When it comes to you
I'm obsessed and you're impressed
Of what you continue to do

I'd give you anything
I'd give you everything
My blood, sweat and tears
My final breath

You have me entranced
Entangled in your sheets
I can barely breathe
Don't care to see

I can't get you out
You're stuck in my head
You're stuck in my head
Like a tape recorder on end

I'm getting dizzy
I'm getting sleepy
I can't see
I want you with me

You're my drug
My next addiction
I inhale what is you
And exhale my wanting

Grab me, choke me
Bind up my limbs
I can't seem to stop
Wanting more, more, more

To think this obsession
Started as small
As the yearning for adventure
And curiosity's grip

To think you took my life
My sanity and independence
To think you'd say it's a fair trade
From stealing from you, your kiss

You had me soaring high
Floating and weightless
Motionless in the air
Dangling and limp

I love how you make me feel
I love this careless feeling
I just can't get enough
I just can't have enough

Mesmerizing colours
An explosion of mixed media
You're a new sensation
A new colour added to my world

I could never be without you
As I had before
I could never see
The colours without you anymore

When I've finally been set free
From the prison you captured me in
It hadn't made a difference
That cracks were already made

I was bruised, I was needy
You had left your mark on me
I was stained in your colours
But I didn't care, I wanted more

I was blinded by you
I became blind for you
I was blinded towards everything
Everything that wasn't you

My hard work, my accomplishments?
My blood, sweat and tears?
All of that didn't matter
If I couldn't have you here

Now I'm deluded, I'm stuck
I'm all over the place
I'm spinning and confused
I want you near again

I always longed for excitement
A break from the same old
But after I met you...?

I've never felt more alive

~

And here we have... addictive love.

The thing about addiction is that it leaves you an entirely different person from the one you knew before. I mean, just look; the victim in this poem had it really bad.

Whatever your reason may be, desire, curiosity, whatever else, you can end up finding yourself intoxicated. And when it's over...? You feel different. But, that should be strange, shouldn't it? After all, this is how you were before you indulged. But now, you just feel... different...

Why?

You want more.

Whether it be a person, food, drug, desire, dream, state of being/ living, have you ever found yourself addicted to something to the point where it severely affects you and your day-to-day functioning/ living?

Until next time,
Ade Alethra