Early Stages

Expectations

A weight forced upon your shoulders
That you wish you didn't have to endure.

Physically, emotionally and mentally exhausting,
It really pushes one to the core.

It brings comfort, reassurance, praise and cheer,
But also despairs, struggles, disapprovals and regrets.

It helps with bonding, friendliness and respect
But causes jealousy, hatred, betrayal and regret.

It's a selfish demand placed of others onto you
Or an unconscious self-greed that leaves us unsatisfied with what we do.

The results can bring joy, satisfaction and happiness,
But an equal amount of heartache and sorrow.

It's not all that bad but not all that good
'Cause some persons just take it too far.

Expectation are meant to make you work harder,
To realise your dreams and your hidden potential.

Not to burden one to the point of depression,
Death, exhaustion or self-oppression.

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I've had my fair share of expectations placed onto me. It really could be a killer. I didn't really care so much about it for a long time but it was when I was around 13 that those same expectations started to confuse me. I couldn't tell what I wanted from what was wanted from me anymore. I didn't understand.

Ever had a feeling as though it were illegal to dream? Because I felt as though the kinds of things I wanted to pursue and do were the most ridiculous and sinful things you could think of to do even though it wasn't.

Maybe it's not as harsh or confusing to me as it was then but I'd rather keep some things to myself until I accomplish it and have something to show that I did. I'm not sure if I'll be able to fulfil my own developing expectations but, if I fall short of my goal, anywhere near it would be enough to satisfy me.

What are your thoughts on expectations? Do you think people are expecting too much from you or do you think that it's just what you needed to push yourself forward?

Until next time,
Ade Alethra.