Early Stages

Spring Day

Spring :

Promise; birth; renewal; new love; starting new; romance; letting go

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Spring is the promise that everything can begin anew, letting go and starting something new

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A promise from the future; a hope that I won't lose you all

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A future letter to the ones I love

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Salut mes amies et ma famille ...

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It feel like it's been such a long time
Since we last were all together
I feel like it's been far too long
Since we've been in each other's presence

It's been a while since our youth days
When we had a certain central meeting place
Where we complained of every minor issue
And had a heart of fun and hopes of freedom

It's been a while since you harassed my soul
And a while since I bothered you
It's been so long since we've been able to
Irritate each other

It's been a while since we've had
Our fun loving interactions
I can't remember the last time I accused
The 'lying, mocking pretender'

It's been a while since we've been together
And looked forward at a goal
As we looked toward our future
Where we'd all be together

The times when we excitedly planned
And hoped for a future
Where even with our different goals
We'd be certain to have each other

Do you remember in those days
The warmth and smiles experienced?
Do you remember in those days
Where our inner child reigned?

Do you remember in those days
How we laughed and teased each other?
How wild we were; how free we'd act
We really were a wild bunch

I look back to those glorious days
Of full-fledged play and fun
And oh how I wish those days
I could have back now

I look back to that sunshine
And wish that I could too
Turn back to those warmer days
And leave this harsh cold behind

We continue forwards just as before
Though not in the same direction
We continue forward on different paths
I hope our roads cross again

Run forward without hesitation
We ran towards uncertainty
I hope that I can one day again
Run alongside you

But right now I stroll by myself
Along the lonesome road
Waiting for the sands of time
To carry me where I must go

As the grains crunch upon my feet
A sign that my journey continue
My mind can't help but sometimes wonder
How the journey must be for you

There hasn't been a day
Where I haven't missed you
Not a minute has passed
When I haven't thought of you

I miss you so much
But when I say that, I miss you more
How much sleep will I lose
Before I see you again?

I feel so lost and so alone
In the big and empty world
A world that is now void
Of your companionship

Like the tiny snowflakes falling from the sky
That travel so fast on the breeze
Would I get any faster to you
If I was but a speck of dust?

I hold onto this hope so tightly
That we may one day be all together
I hold tight to the hope that this winter
Will not last forever

Do you think the same as me?
Do you miss me as much as I do?
I may never know the answer but I hope you won't leave
Once I'm finally back

The world is moving much faster
And I'm fearful I may be kept back
The distance is growing much wider
Will I ever see you again?

So much has changed; it's become a blur
Will I also fade away?
I must just hope and trust and wish with my all
That my light will not grow dull

I see the promise for better days to come
I see a future where we are all back together
Where we can start afresh and anew
And let go of old and past grudges

"You know it all; you're my best friend
The morning will come again
Because no darkness, no season
Will last forever"

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I spread my wings
And hope to fly
And that the wind will be my guide
(I miss you, I miss you)

Until this winter pass
Until the spring comes
Till flower bloom
And the gloom is gone

(I'll wait for you, I'll wait for you)

(Please wait for me, please wait for me)

I'll send my wishes towards the sky
I'll nurture this flame and hope it survives
The blossoms bloom as this winter ends
Please wait for me

I'll come see you

I'm here for you

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There are some people that have just grown too important to me for me to ever want to lose them.

When I wrote this poem, I wrote it from a futuristic point of view, looking back at the life I had when I wrote this. I am not even as far into the future that I had been referring to but rereading this now already hurts my heart.

I feel like I have lost or am in the process of losing some of those people I cherish most and I do feel like it is partly my fault and my nature that is to blame.

As we move forward through life, we'll end up moving away from what we're familiar with; the life and people we knew. We will form new bonds and break even more. You will go through many seasons and there will be times in the cold harsh winter that you wish you could go back to the time of only rain and sun.

You'd wish that you could go back to the people you had spent so much time with though you barely see each other anymore.

If a friendship is truly golden and your bond so strong, you can at least be comforted by the thought that, no matter how much time you must spend away from each other, however much long hours or years, you'd come back to each other as though no one ever left.

Until next time,
Ade Alethra