seventeen imagines

walkin' in time • wonwoo

Day dreaming in the midst of the night, the boy sadly smiled. He missed those happy times with you.

His feelings were twisted. He desperately wanted to be in a relationship with you, but knew that there would no longer be any love between you two.

Do we really need to end it this time? He thought.

He sighed and looked down at the pavement underneath him. He didn't quite know.

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When Wonwoo woke up the following morning, you were already busy packing your things. Old boxes were brought out as you filled them with all your belongings in the apartment. The boy felt his heart break even more at the sight of you getting ready to leave the apartment, leave his life.

It was weird for Wonwoo to help the person he was in love with for two years, move out of their shared apartment. It felt like he was packing away a piece of his heart.

The two of you would make small talk here and there, mentioning a memory that was attached to a certain item and discovering old favourites. It was painful to relive the old memories you two shared, knowing what those happy times led to. It was weird to think that just a few months ago, you were madly in love with each other and thought that this would last forever. It's crazy what changes overtime.

The move out was almost too simple for the boy's liking. You said your goodbyes to each other quietly, hugging each other tightly with tears brimming in your eyes as you shared one last kiss. Seeing you walk away was heartbreaking for Wonwoo and that was when he let his emotions take over him, tears beginning to roll down his face.

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The following week was the hardest seven days of his life.

These types of breakups were the worst. There wasn't any reason to be mad at the other person, nothing to blame the failed relationship on, just simply the loss of love. The two of you just weren't happy anymore; it was countless arguing and not spending time together, you were simply growing apart from each other. People change over time and relationships don't always stay the same.

So it's extremely hard to break up with the person you loved for so long, having shared so many unforgettable feelings and memories with. It's hard to let go of the person who made you happy for so long and made your heart flutter. It was hard to accept that the love died between the two of you. It was hard to accept that it was best to break up. It was hard to move on.

Wonwoo spent the week with his head roaring with thoughts in the too quiet apartment. Whether it was looking through old photos of the two of you or sulking on the couch, time seemed to move so slowly without you in his life. He no longer had any motivation to do anything, no love in his life to keep him going. There was no one to make me smile, laugh and feel joy in his life. He was alone with his thoughts and it felt like the hands on the clock were pushing the boy through time.

Time won't pass without you.

After that night the two of you broke up, the boy began looking for any traces of love that was still alive. He would come up with far-fetched ideas on how to make the relationship work out and how to make both of you happy again. He thought of ways to rekindle that love and feed the fire for as long as he could. But reality would always seep into his mind and tell him that love couldn't be forced. Some things just weren't meant to be and Wonwoo had to learn how to accept that.

It didn't help that it still felt you were in the apartment, despite the fact that you moved out. The boy thinks it's because you were the one that brought life to the small unit and made it feel like a home. The apartment was once welcoming and warm, but now it was isolated and cold, all because you had left. Everything has changed yet stayed the same.

Wonwoo felt as if you remained in him, constantly causing pain. You were lingering everywhere, from his thoughts to the objects in the apartment. He couldn't go a second without thinking of you and wondering if you were suffering like he was. Everything in the apartment reminded the boy of you and the burned-out love. It was like a constant reminder of the break up and what he no longer had. You were his world, and for his universe to suddenly disappear was insufferable.

Wonwoo had nothing now. Not even you by his side.

~

When the news broke of the break up, the boy's phone was blown up with texts from his best friends. For a brief moment, he forget about all the pain and was embraced by the love his friends gave him. It partially filled his heart to receive so much love from people who genuinely cared about him.

Many said, "Your relationship remains as good memories!" as a way to not despise the past. Others said,"Think about your future, now you've learned!" to make him think about the future and how hopeful it seemed. But the one that really stuck with him was, "Time will heal things!" He didn't understand it.

How could time heal him if it was the thing that was causing all the pain?

Time was keeping him rooted in the same place, physically and mentally. He couldn't just get up and move out of the apartment. He couldn't just change mindsets overnight and get rid of the all the pain. He couldn't make time pass by any faster and move on.

He was just walking in time. Again and again.

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