A Country Girl.

Chapter 41

Hailey

"hey guys" Amy said "dinners almost done, you should go wash up" "alright" I said walking out of the kitchen.

I walked up stairs and went to the bathroom. 'Ty was acting really strange' I thought as I washed my hands 'could it be because of my panic attack? but why, he might of been the one to cause it but he didn't know it would happen' 'neither did I.' 

I finished washing up and went back down stairs. I heard Amy and Ty talking in the kitchen. I paused and hid behind the door frame. 

"I didn't want to do this but she's not getting any better" Amy said

 "do what?" asked Ty

'yeah, what does Amy not want to do?'

 "I'm gonna make Hailey a psychiatrist appointment"

'wait what, why? I'm perfectly fine, I can take care of myself'

 "oh ok, but do you think she'll talk?" 

'of course not'

"no, but we need to see whats going on and how to fix it."

'nothings going on, and nothing needs to be fixed'

After they finished talking I walked into the kitchen. Ty walked past me with a smile, but it didn't fool me, I knew he was trying to hide his worry. None the less I smiled back then sat it my seat. "hey Hailey, do you think you could go tell granddad that dinner is done? he's in his room" "sure." I stood and went up stairs to get Papa.

When I reached his room I knocked. "come in" he called. I opened the door "hey Papa Amy sent me to come get you for dinner" "alright dear, I'm on my way." I smiled at him and went back down stairs. 

When I got to the kitchen Ty was already sitting in his seat. I took my seat next to him. He looked over at me and smiled, a real smile this time, and I smiled back. Papa came down a minute later and Amy started serving food.

After dinner Ty left and Amy, Papa, and I went to our rooms. I laid in my bed thinking about what could happen at the psychiatrist. 'what if it doesn't help?" I thought ' what if they make it worse?' I sat up in bed 'maybe I should talk to Amy?' I nodded to myself and got up.

I walked out into the hall and down to Amy's room. I knocked and waited for an answer. "come in" Amy called. I walk in "oh, hey Hailey, whats up?" "um, I wanted to talk to about something" "ok what is it?"  "I heard you talking to Ty earlier" "oh um what did you hear?" "that you are gonna take me to a psychiatrist even tho you really didn't want to and that I'm not getting better" I said choking on unshed tears "oh honey come here" Amy said holding her arms out.

I walked forward and fell into her arms. As soon as her arms were around me the tears burst out. "oh honey, its ok, your fine" "no... n.no I.. I'm no.. t" I said between sobs "yes, you are" "no, I'm not. I lost everything" "what do you mean?" "first it was Peach and Nexus, then Ty, then peach again, and then Nexus again, and now I'm loosing myself, my mind" "oh baby, your not loosing you mind, anyone who's been through something like you did would act the same" "that's the thing I'm not like anyone else I've always been stronger then others."

"like when mom died, I was stronger then any of the other kids, and when I fell off Blue. I've always been strong, but lately I've been weak, I let Ty hurt me, then I let James get to me and now he still messes with me and he's not even around" "Hailey, I know you've been strong, and you still are but just because you've been through some tough times it doesn't mean your weak." "what do you mean, I've lost my mind and you know it that's why your making me talk to a complete stranger" " no, it's not, I'm doing this to help you get over it. what you went through is something that no one should go through and something no one can come out of unharmed in any way no matter how strong they are."