A Country Girl.

Chapter 50

' Severe PTSD' was written in red ink on the sheet of paper. All the previous anger dissipated. My hands started shaking "No, this can't be right" I said "he's lying I DONT have severe PTSD, I don't" "Hailey, I know its hard but I think he's  telling the truth" Amy said calmly "no this cant happen" I yelled my anger spiking "Hailey calm down. Your over reacting" "over reacting? I'm not over reacting" "Hailey breath, just breath. in" Amy said breathing in "out" then letting it out slowly I did the same, taking deep breath and let it out slowly.

Once I was calm and not angry Amy pulled out of the parking spot. After a few minutes tears started to leak out and my hands started shaking "how am I supposed to train the horses? I may hurt them or scare them into never trusting humans again" I said fighting my tears once again "high Hailey, you would never hurt any of them horses ever" " you don't know, and How will this affect my relationship with Ty? We only just officially became a couple." Unable to hold back the tears I began sobbing uncontrollably. Amy tried her best to confront me while driving by rubbing my back as I was curled into a ball on the seat still crying.

By the time we had gotten home the tears had stopped but I was drained. I didnt even registered us pulling into the driveway until the car was off. I got out and walked to the door, shoulders slumped and head low. Amy, who was walking just ahead of me, held the door for me but I was to tired to say anything. "Hey Hails how was it?" Ty asked, I didn't answer "um Hailey? Are you ok?" I ignored him and went up stairs to my room. I plopped down onto my bed and curled up on top of my blanket, not bothering to cover up, I fell asleep.

I woke up to the sound of someone knocking on my door. "Go away" I groaned rolling over and covering my face. I heard the door open "Hailey?" Ty said "leave me alone" "ok but Amy wanted me to tell you that breakfast is done if you want to come down and eat" "I'm not hungry now get out" I said pulling my pillow over my head. I heard Ty sigh the the door shut. I rolled back over to face the door placing my pillow back under my head. As I stared at the door tear silently slid down my face. 'I'm sorry but I cant risk hurting you'll I thought closing my eyes and falling back asleep.

I woke up a few hours later, I sat up and grabbed my phone to check the time. 4:15. I sighed putting my phone back on my nightstand and throwing the blankets off. I walked to the window and pulled the curtain aside. Outside the sun was shining and there wasnt a cloud in the sky.

I could see Ty and Papa working on a downed fence in the front pasture. As I watched Ty stood and looked up at me, he smiled and waved. I didn't wave back, I just closed the curtain and hid in the dark.

An hour later a knock sounded at my door "Hailey, it Amy, can I come in?" Amy asked from the door, when I didn't answer the door opened "hey sis" she said shutting the door and walking over to sit next to me on the bed. "I just came to check on you, you haven't left your room all day" Amy waited a minute for an answer, when I didnt she shifted placing her hand on my arm "Well if you feel like coming down dinner should be done in about an hour." She then got up and left.

I spent the rest of the day in my room hiding in my blankets in the dark. Amy had brought me up a plate of food but I didn't eat it. After having plenty of time to think over what had happened yesterday I realised that I was a danger to everyone around me, it was a ticking time bomb and anything could cause it to explode. But the scariest thing is that, you will never know when or what will cause it to blow. That's when I decided I would stay in my room alone and away from those I love and care about, so when I did explode they wouldn't get hurt.