Jenalyn: A Splitting Personality (#2) [Complete]

Chapter 56: Hayden

Thursday, 3:21 P.M.

I can hear Ty ranting and raving about something downstairs before he even makes it up here to where I sit in his bedroom. I automatically start panicking.

Did Gage tell him what happened already? 

He hasn't even tried to talk to me since I left him in the kitchen earlier... I heard shuffling outside in the hallway a little while ago- but it's been pretty silent out there since. I didn't even get a text message... which I guess is okay, because despite being in the here and now right now- I still don't feel quite right in the head.

"How the hell is that asshole going to leave after sending me to the store to get this game system?!" Ty asks after swinging open his bedroom door and noticing me sitting on the bed. "I called him while I was downstairs- the asshole wouldn't even answer!"

I didn't even know he left... I guess that explains the silence. 

I shrug my shoulders, taking a moment to try to normalize myself before I engage myself with Tyler. I've been so worried about him coming home, but couldn't even prepare for what I'd do or say when he got here. 

Do I tell him? How mad is he going to be? Is he going to break up with me, especially after everything that happened last night? Or do I keep it a secret? 

These questions have been circling my head since I came up here, but my mind has been such shit that I've been unable to even figure anything out. 

Somewhere inside of me, I'm broken.

I need to figure out how to fix myself before I could even begin to try and figure any of that out.

I just don't know how...

"I'm not sure," I can finally make my words come out. "He didn't tell me he was leaving."

Ty places the plastic bag he'd carried into the room on his dresser before turning back to me with a playful sigh.

"Ah, oh well!" he says as he slowly walks to the bed with a slick smile spread across his lips. "I guess I'll just have to hang out with you today!"

I offer Ty a small smile, and a "looks like it," unable to bring myself to do much more despite my knowing where he's trying to go with this. 

He throws himself down on the bed beside where I sit, his hand automatically finding it's way to my lower back. He gently begins to rub it.

"You alright?" he asks, concern finding his voice.

I nod my head, allowing my body to fall back beside him until we lay next to each other.

"I'm good..." I mumble, wishing I could find more words to try to convince him I really am okay. I'm not though, so I can't. "It's just hormones, probably." I'm quickly able to add.

I can see Tyler smile in my peripherals, then turn over until he lays on his belly beside me. "My babies," he practically coos, and then proceeds to rest his hand on my belly. "Stop making mommy sad! Daddy doesn't like that." 

He offers me a goofy smile after patting my belly gently as if to tell the baby itself. It's adorable, but even that isn't enough to make the smile I spread across my lips sincere. 

I'm going to have to tell him about Gage... it's probably guilt making it so hard to get my head even close to right.

Hayden probably actually feels guilt.. and despite it being Jenalyn who came in here and screwed things up? Involving both Ty and Gage in this shit storm is always going make this a Hayden problem...

I take a deep breath. 

"I think uhm-... well, I know Gage likes me." I manage to shove the words from my mouth before I let them hide, and guilt Hayden any more than they have. "Likes me like... a lot more than he should, I guess..."

I know it's not what I'm trying to admit to Ty right now- but when the words escape and I don't feel even a tiny bit better, I immediately grow discouraged. 

Tyler let's out a small laugh, nodding his head as he repositions himself so that he's propped up on his elbows. 

"Oh- I know he does," he states matter of factly. "I've known that! Are you only just now figuring it out? I thought you knew already, you were practically dating him!"

My jaw would drop if I had it in me to actually feel the surprise his response should cause me.

So he does know.

Why would he leave me here alone with him then? The question only lasts a moment before a small voice in the back of my mind answers for me. 

Because he trusted you... it says sourly, he trusted you, and you fucked up.

"I didn't date him?" I respond as soon as I can get the thought out of my mind, and the words from my mouth. "We were just frie-"

Ty's laugh interrupts, his face entertained as he watches the confusion spread across mine.

"-friends with benefits." he says, once again matter of factly. "Well, minus the sex part of the benefits, I guess... but yeah! From what I understand, you two were always hooking up when you'd come party with us! No guy is just going to sit there, make out sesh after make out shesh without sex if they aren't feeling you!"

My eyebrows furrow as I try to process his words, and make sense of how he even knows that. Do they just sit there and talk about those kinds of things with each other? Because I know for a fact, that Ty was never around when it happened. 

"Gage told you that?" I ask once the words find their way to my mouth. 

Tyler immediately nods. "Yeah, quite a few times, actually," he says nonchalantly. "I mean I'm sure we both expected its be you and him that'd end up together- not us. But he's my twin! We talk!" 

My heart clenches in my chest as he finishes. The idea of Gage telling Ty what happened before I get the chance is causing anxiety to arise in my chest.

I know Gage wouldn't do anything to intentionally hurt me, but at the same time... Ty is his little brother. Despite the fact that he is guilty just as much as I am- I'll always be more in the wrong than Gage solely because of that.

"Do you... like Gage?" Ty asks after the few moments of silence I had left between us while trying to sort my mind. 

It takes me off guard, but I immediately respond by shaking my head and then correcting it. "I mean- I liked Gage, he's a really great guy! But... I'm with you. If I wanted to be with him, I'd be with him..." 

Ty let's out a small laugh and runs his hand through his dark hair before turning to me with a small smirk on his face. "That doesn't mean you still can't like him, Hayden- he's my twin. We're practically the same person."

I think about earlier- and how easy it was for my mind to trick itself into thinking that what was happening was okay because of that reason exactly.

They're also super different though. And I recognize that.

"You're Tyler, he's Gage... and I'm dating Tyler," I state after a moment. 

I know that I have to tell him what I did, and that playing the twin card could probably work in my favor if I played it right. I also know that I messed up though... and unless I want to enable Jenalyn to ruin everything Hayden has- I have to try to be honest about this.

I take a deep breath and turn to him.

"-but I want to be honest with you and tell you..." I force from my lips. "I made out with him today. It was just... the moment. We didn't have sex or anything, but that happened."