Jenalyn: A Splitting Personality (#2) [Complete]

Chapter 7: Jenalyn

Friday, 7:22 P.M.

 “There is no known safe amount of alcohol to drink while pregnant."

I read the words on my phone over and over again, just wishing I could take back the shot I'd already taken with Gage assuming one wouldn't be that harmful... 

The walls of the bathroom seem to be closing in around me as a mix of panic and guilt set in- but the only thing I can think about is having another shot. The monster inside of me is stronger than I could ever be- even as a mother...

Maybe I shouldn't do this. I shouldn't follow through with the pregnancy... I can't. 

A soft knock on the door followed by Gage's concerned voice pulls me from the panic settling in my mind. "Are you alright in there?" He calls out, "Need me to bring you anything?" 

I didn't realize I had been in here so long.

The Ophelia sisters, another one of my favorite musical artists, had shown up shortly after Tyler threw his little fit because Gage called him out for drinking. Tyler was all over one of the two sisters, and Gage just had a lot of shit to talk about it. I guess Ty cheated, not only on his fakelationship with Harlee, but on Sophie too, with the same sister he's all over tonight. I'm not sure if it was Tyler's behavior, or Gage's bitching about it that had sent me over the edge- but I guess I've been in here since. 

"No! I- I'm good!" I call out, shoving my phone in my pocket and flushing the toilet to make it seem like I've been doing more than stewing in here. "I think I'm actually just ready to go home! Could you still drive me, or-"

I'm inturrupted by Gage's now panicked voice. I know he's going be disappointed in my leaving, but I also know that if I stay... I'll probably lose the fight with my monster and have a bit more to drink. 

"What?!" Gage asks through the door, a slight whine in his voice I was honestly expecting. "Why? You don't have to- ugh! Can I just come in, Jena? Please?"

I swing open the bathroom door and Gage is pushing his way inside before I can even get a look at him. He shuts the door behind him, arms folded across his chest as he let's out a small sigh. "What's up? Is this about Tyler?" he practically snaps, the hurt on his face supposed to be hidden though it's very apparent. "Look- I know you're coming from a place where Tyler is like some amazing fucking rockstar who gave the image of being like... the world's sweetest boyfriend- but you really need to get over that, Jena. He's a player, alright? He's not-"

I don't know what else to do but inturrupt him.

I don't want to have this conversation with him right now- my emotions are already running rampant through my body and I'm not about to break down and end up opening my mouth to him about things I shouldn't.

My mind is instantly pulling the first thing that I know will work to the forefront. I've been around too many men not to know how to keep them quiet when I want to.

I just push him against the door and plant my lips firmly on his to his obvious surprise. 

It takes him a moment to respond, but when he does I can tell it's with more emotion than I wish I'd noticed.. Gage is quick to find my sides with his hands, and pull me closer to him. I can taste the last shot of whiskey he'd taken, and the monster already purring inside of me practically screams. 

I pull away. It takes so much out of me, but I manage to do it solely because kissing Gage right now just... doesn't feel right. 

"I uh- I have to go because of Hayden things..." I manage to mumble as I try to contain the monster now throwing a fit in my head. "I'm going try to come back later, but... can you take me?"

Gage is practically a ghost- his mouth sits agape, and his skin is so pale. I can tell he's having a hard time finding his words, but after a few moments, he finally begins to nod his head.

"Yeah, yeah!" he says, no questions asked. He takes a deep breath, seemingly trying to gather himself, before turning around to open the door. 

Just the way my monster would like it... if I wasn't working against it, and leaving the one place it wants me to be right now.