8:37pm
"This burger is very greasy" Hoseok say grabbing a napkin to wipe off the grease on his mouth, he reaches over and wipes my mouth. There I go again feeling my cheeks burn from what I'm guessing is blushing.
"So how did the first day of therapy go" Hoseok ask once again stealing some of my fries, why didn't he just order fries. Not gonna question because for some reason I want him stealing my fries. "Sucked ass I cried up my time" I reply not trying to spare a glance at him because it's embarrassing.
"Yikes, I mean that's good that means it shows you want to talk about it" Hoseok say instead of something else which I wouldn't mind the something else. "No it shows how weak I am" I reply mentally rolling my eyes, "no it doesn't Yoongi being weak is okay in your situation you should want to feel weak so you can get better" I look up at him.
"What do you mean my situation I'm not some disease" I didn't want to say that outloud but I did and now I look dumb. My weakness is showing. "No one said that Yoongi and to be honest you do have a situation going on you literally just tried killing yourself not to long ago" he quiets himself after he see how bad he's making me feel.
"Yeah and now I'm with some stranger, I want to be home in my room coping with this shit by myself because it seems like your just making me feel bad about everything, you don't even know why I really wanted to kill myself" I try covering my mouth but it didn't work. I fought against my hand.
"The tv is still mute for me" there was silence once again. I just keep fucking up everything. "I'm sorry Yoongi I don't mean to make you feel that way, I keep saying those things to you because my bestfriend was literally like you and I almost lost him" is what Hoseok say after so many minutes of us picking at our food.
"He was young and I just felt like a bad friend for not seeing the real him, he suffered home problems along with self problems and I didn't seem to notice he built up everything which led to one night him trying to kill him self with me in the car I crashed us into another car because he literally just fell out in the seat next to me, downed a whole bottle of pills before we left my place."
"It was his birthday that night and I wanted to take him out, I should have seen the signs earlier that week how cold he was and I could have prevented that from happening of course I had days where I blamed myself because he still could've died on me but he didn't because I made him fight he has so much to live for and I make sure to show him that."
"When you called that night your voice sounded so similar to his, I got so attached to your call I had to talk you out of it or else I was gonna feel that guilt again, I know I shouldn't compare your stories but jesus Yoongi it kills me knowing you look at my damn tv seeing it is completely mute."
I broke him, I truly did he was on the verge of tears. My limbs started having a life of there own and soon I was resting my head on his chest hugging him. Hoseok feels like home, smells like home, he feels just like home.
