11:03am
"You ever had a boyfriend before?" Hoseok ask me as we lay on this very soft blanket, staring up at the sky. "What makes you ask" I say turning my head towards him.
"Just curious Yoongs" he replies with that sly smile. I sigh happily, three boyfriends to be exact and yes I loved all of them but two ended tragically. Haven't been in a relationship in a year just been messing around not that he should know that.
"Three boyfriends" I answer placing my hands on my belly. Hoseok turns to his side resting on his elbow as he stares at Yoongi, "did you love them?" He questions so intrigued in his live.
"Why?" Yoongi questions glancing at him, didn't want to turn towards him since he knows Hoseok has gotten closer to him. "I had one serious relationship and it lasted for two years—she lived far but I made an effort to see her until one day she cut it saying she can't handle the distance—I took it to heart and became afraid of relationships she was my everything, my first for everything" he answers as Yoongi played with a piece of grass.
"How long ago was this?" Yoongi questions picking pieces off the flower. "My two last years in high school—dark time" Yoongi laughs at the last part because his whole high school experience was dark. "Relatable I see" Hoseok speaks smiling at Yoongi, and the older just nods.
"So you like girls!?" Yoongi ask realizing Hoseok said his first relationship was with a girl. "I'm bisexual if your asking yoongs—but I learned that I'm more attracted to guys" Hoseok answers resting on his back again.
"You never told me your sexuality" Hoseok questions turning his head towards the older direction. "Because I have no need to" Yoongi answers leaving Hoseok on edge.
Knowing each other for some time now Hoseok been pretty much closed in on Yoongi life. Despite the little details he can spill out of him it's still and aggravating tick that bothers him at night. "How am I suppose to know if I can ask you out if you don't tell me your sexuality" Hoseok say with a eye roll running his finger along Yoongi veiny one.
Yoongi cheeks become tinted and he covers his face letting out a muffled giggle. "Shut up if you ask me out I'll tell you no immediately" Yoongi blurts removing his hands away. "I'm rejected already—does that mean I can ask you out in two days" Hoseok say teasing him.
Yoongi rolls his eyes sighing "just give up I'm not worth relationship material I'll mess up your life" Yoongi replies as his lips form a thin line.
"I want you to ruin my life—Yoongi you are worth my relationship material" Hoseok stresses out and Yoongi sits up bringing his knees to his chest. He stays quiet looking everywhere but Hoseok, how can he do this to me? Throw this at me? Why does he even like me?
"Are you asking me out?" Yoongi whispers looking at Hoseok who was still laying down but in a much more comfortable position. "No Yoongs not yet—just wanted you to know that I have eyes for you" Hoseok responds smiling.
Yoongi looks away smiling, of course he wants to date Hoseok but he doesn't think he's mentally prepared for this man crazy life.
"Never told me if you loved them or not" Hoseok say glancing up at Yoongi. "Fine—I loved all three of them but two ended tragically and the other decided its best he leaves" I respond tracing my finger over the cover patterns.
"Freshmen year—we ended that after five months of arguing and constant sex so stupid for me to say I love you—graduated high school and dated another guy for a year he said I'm too emotional, constantly said I was fat and useless better off dead he abused me physically and mentally but I loved him—last guy was a year ago and we only lasted six months he said I need to work on my mental health before entering a relationship he also called me pathetic."
3:59pm
"Thanks for the picnic" I kindly say as I stand at my front door. "Anything for you" Hoseok praises, "my next off day me and you are going somewhere special so be prepared dork" he say ruffling my hair which makes me smile and nod. "Do you really have to leave" I ask quietly even if I'm confusing and hard to put up with I still don't want him to leave my side.
"Yeah I'm sorry but I'll call you to make sure you aren't dead and all that good stuff" he jokes and that makes me laugh. "Get some rest and eat a full meal" he tells me and leans over—pressing his hand on my hip as his lips make contact with my forehead.
I get a whiff of his cologne, knees almost buckling as he stays there for seconds more and then walks away waving. My face is beat red as I wave back shyly and then close my door.
Falling back onto my bed smiling at my ceiling as I think about him all over again. Hugging my pillow as I roll over screaming into it. Hoseok Jung curse you for being the best man ever.
