11:10am
I decided to spend my morning cleaning up the living room and kitchen. The house smelled terrible and looked even worse, my mom can't live in these conditions. Speaking of my mom she still haven't went into detail about what happened with her and Jae.
But she hasn't been here all morning when I woke up she was gone, don't know if she's gone because of work. The house phone did ring and some guy asked for her, so I'm guessing her job called here.
The front door opened, I stopped sweeping to look and see my mom stumble into the house. "Hey dumpling oh your cleaning I was gonna clean up but I haven't been feeling so good" she states not in a complete sentence. She sits on the couch pulling her purse off her shoulders, I place the broom down walking over to her.
She looks up at me and then pulls out some bag out her purse, a liquor store bag. She kicks her feet up on the coffee table and sips from her bottle, "where have you been?" I ask taking her feet off the table. "Craziest thing happened went to work and no one was there so I left" the sigh that left my lips. How can I come here to feel better when I got to put everything back together.
"Ma why you lying to me, your job asking where are you I had to lie" as always she ignores me. "You leave and get drunk and then try to lie to me mom that's not cool, you told me you were gonna stop this mom" she gets up but ends up falling back into the couch with a giggle. "Mom this isn't funny" she looks up at me pouting as if I'm just suppose to forget everything and be all giddy.
I walk away from her taking her purse going into the kitchen, "got your money today" I ask empty out her purse. "Yeah I took some cash out so Jae can come and get me" she replies before laying down on her side. Jae come and get her? "He's gonna treat me" she say turning on the living room tv.
I roll my eyes and take her credit card and the money envelope. I put all her stuff back in her purse before going in her room placing her bag on her dresser and her card and money in a jar in her closet. I'm glad she keeps her room clean, she barely be in here though.
I call Jae and he doesn't answer the first time. "What time is Jae picking you up" I shout out walking into my room, "what dumpling?" she yells back. "What time is Jae coming mom" I ask once again hearing her words become more inaudible "he's coming" she questions. I sigh and get up walking into the living room, "mom you just told me Jae is coming to get you" she sits up shakingly and glances up at me.
"Hmm around ten" she replies and stands up, I grab her arm guiding her to the bedroom letting her lay down in the bed. I watch as she falls into a drunk slumber before pulling some blankets over her, I bottled up my tears and dialed Jae number again.
"What's up bud" he answers after the second call, a second call he answers. "Where are you, Mom was waiting for you and you stood her up and look I know how she gets but don't lie to her don't treat her like that you could have at least called" my blood boils, he's taking her for granted.
"What are you talking about?" I can hear the attitude in his voice he's annoyed from me disturbing his paradise. "I'm with mom and she told me you were gonna treat her today what happen to that" I question back standing by the window.
"Yoongi I'm busy I can't just come in three seconds, I'll be over there tomorrow I didn't think she would remember after drinking so much in one day" my phone almost gets crushed in my hands. "Why are you over moms is there something wrong?" He's a piece of shit and selfish.
"Whatever look don't lie to mom anymore" I say hanging up and then pull at my hair. I look over to my mom seeing her still sleep on the bed, I go lay next to her crying.
Must have been a while since I was crying, she wakes up wrapping her arms around me tighter "dumpling what's wrong" her voice is full of concern. I wrap my arms around her burying myself into her crying harder, my wrist twitch I just want to slit them once again.
"Yoongi" she calls out rubbing her fingers up my back, "I'm just tired of it mom" I sobbed out.
