7:23am
This 90 day home is the hardest, when I was thirteen and told my student counselor I didn't want to be here anymore they sent me to one hours away from home. At that time when I got out everyone thought I was fine which was complete bullshit.
The second time was when I slit my thighs and almost bled out to death until namjoon found me. My parents knew but didn't really care, mom too drunk to realize, dad was too absent to actually grasp onto reality that I was in a home again. Jae knew and stayed by my side for the most part but at that point in my life I didn't speak too much to anyone.
This is my third time in another house and now I'm getting blamed at, yelled, scolded for being me. A depressed asshole who now has the guts to change his life around seems like nothing to some. I want to remember Jungkook words but I can't when my family keep appearing in my mind.
"It's time to wake up already" Jinyoung ask sitting up in his bed, I looked over at him and back down at my journal that had the page covered in tears. "Hey man are you okay you need Dr. Sao here" he ask stepping out of bed coming over to me. I shake my head no bringing my hands to my eyes crying harder, "it's barely seven we don't get up for another hour—are you like having another break down do you need some help" starting to shake I didn't answer him but instead I continued to cry. Fuck I hate my random emotional outburst.
Dr. Sao comes in after Jinyoung got afraid that Yoongi was gonna do something regretful. She came in whispering in Yoongi ear but he continued to ignore her and cry. All the other patients were worried some standing outside Yoongi door, the others whispered about him as they started there day. Yoongi hated that he was getting attention for crying again.
An hour later Yoongi went downstairs with Dr. Sao she thought it was best he stayed in a room by himself for awhile. Yoongi hated it throwing his food across the room, he flipped the table and sat in the corner still crying. "We might have to send him somewhere else Sao it's getting worse we can't have him behaving like this around other patients" a doctor tell her and she shushes them watching Yoongi from afar.
"No I'm keeping him here, he needs this—let everything out we just need to talk to him when he's ready" she orders and turns away to look at the other doctors. They agree with her even though they have different points of view.
9:03pm
Yoongi hated and loved the rain for certain reasons, good things and bad things can come out of it. It always bring the worst out of him when it rains. It is pouring raining outside been like that all day so it was pretty quiet around the house despite some patients chit chatter.
Yoongi has been taking a 'shower' for an hour now and no one has really noticed how long he's been gone. He sat on the bathroom floor still crying he doesn't like how he's feeling and just want to be wrapped in his arms.
He stands up wiping his face opening the window.
10:23pm
An hour that he's been sitting outside on this crib sobbing in the rain as he lets the water soak him. Everyone is looking for him worried that something bad has happened to him.
He stands up again wobbling on his legs as he starts running again, making it to his door he pounds on the door multiple times hoping that he is home and not at work. Hoseok opens the door looking at Yoongi soaked body, collapsing in Hoseok arms he cries loudly holding him tight not caring that he is getting him wet.
"Dr. Sao—he's with me" Hoseok saids into the phone before hanging up. Bringing Yoongi inside he closes the door pulling the crying boy off of him to get him to calm down. "Yoongi it's okay calm down your here now—your gonna hurt yourself" shaking his head no at Hoseok words he falls to the floor sobbing.
Hoseok grabs a blanket off the couch and wraps it around Yoongi soaked body wrapping his arms around his body. "Don't leave me please!!" Yoongi screams grabbing Hoseok harshly who shushes him rubbing his back comfortably. Yoongi calmed down once Hoseok kisses him which all felt like a fairytale.
It was quiet; the first time hosoek asked if Yoongi was okay he got silence in return. Figuring he should just let him sit there to gather his thoughts.
"Okay now" Hoseok whispers wiping Yoongi wet hair out his eyes, smiling a little he nods burying himself into Hoseok. "Yoongi you snuck out your home in the rain to run here—gonna get sick and possibly push back your time at the home everyone has called me about you Yoongi" Hoseok rants and Yoongi climbs into his lap as if he already isn't in it, tighten his arms around Hoseok neck.
"I feel you smiling on my neck—this isn't funny Yoongi I almost sent a whole swat team to look for you" Yoongi laughs and grabs Hoseok face kissing him.
