9:45am
"My mother and father met in high school falling in love after many occasions of seeing each other, had three kids but my older sister is non existent to me so I just cancel her out my life I just naturally fell into my brother arms I always want to be like him he's so cool and awesome he's just this good guy who has this whole life ahead of him."
"My father cheated on my mom multiple times but this time my mom actually left him having to raise three kids on her own until my sister and mom fought and she ran away from home ever since we haven't heard from her, that's when I was 6 so I barely remember her actually when I was ten she came back home and promised me these things and left again and now it's been years since I seen her, she was the first person to break my heart."
"My father let me down many times but then other times he brung me up it just depend on how his life is working because apparently I work on his time he was the second person to break my heart I was still young at the time, he's one of the reasons I have second thoughts about everything I was 7 having a fear of being alone like an adult."
"Mother lost her spark basically quit her job so me and my brother struggled, she would get jobs here and there but she mostly lived off the money my father gave her eventually she just started drinking some days were harder then the others I just couldn't physically handle it at times and just stay locked up in my room, it's hard seeing your mom all drunk not thinking about her words complaining to me about how much a deadbeat my dad is, she would stop at times but then one sip lead to many others before she was passed on her bed she breaks my heart everyday."
"My brother had to pick up the slack even though he didn't have to, but he did and took care of me I mean we did everything together he taught me everything, encouraged me to do everything, he gave me the strength, that was until he met vero in my freshmen year and after that he just started disappearing from me I had to handle everything on my own, I felt betrayed he promised to always be there but now he's just a fading memory."
"Friends left me left and right sometimes I thought it was my fault some friendships I never found the reason as to why they left me but they did, so now I only have one friend who I have pushed away because I'm afraid he's just gonna leave like the rest do."
"How long have you and this friend been friends" Minjun ask clicking his pen. "For years now probably six or seven years it's been awhile" I reply finally letting my sleeve go.
I feel so much better it's like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. "How does he feel about this whole situation" Minjun ask causing me to gulp, like I said Namjoon is no different from me.
"Namjoon suffers with family issues I always comforted him and he always offered to comfort me but I declined because I was too scared, I want to talk to him and tell him everything I'm just afraid" after that I hear a lot of scribbling on the paper.
"How would you feel if namjoon took his own life?" My heart actually sunk, I care about the kid even though he makes my guts all hot I do care for him. "Blameful for not talking to him" I reply before clicking my tongue, I tilt my head over actually thinking if namjoon would take his own life.
I would blame myself everyday, feel as if it's all my fault. Why didn't I make the effort to talk to him? Why did I deny his offers? What if he just wanted us both to talk because he's going through a lot too?
I have to talk to him. Immediately. Before I lose my friend.
5:34pm
"Yoongi" Namjoon states standing right infront of me, hate that I'm shorter then him.
