Rose [S.M]

The truth behind the smile

I always wanted to go to Dublin. I don't know but something about this city has a huge attraction for me. I wish it was underneath better circumstances though. Things between me and Shawn have been... cold. Mostly my doing, I must admit, but I cannot get over the fact that he has lied to me about who he was on the phone with. That brings me to the fact that he wouldn't have lied about it if it was someone normal. You catch my vibe? I mean, if it's nobody important, why would you lie? So, since the moment my eyes opened, that question has been running through my mind.

Luckily for me, is Shawn's mother here. When I got back from my morning run, he had already left. He left a note saying that he was going to explore the city with his mother and if I wanted to join them when I got back.

The last thing I want to do right now, is to be near him. That probably sounds pathetic but I just hate it to be lied to. There is nothing in this world that will get me more upset then to be lied to. So, for me the best thing to do, is to stay where I am and leave him for the time being. I have to think about what I am going to say to him and not to sound like a complete psychopath. Because if it turns out that he really did not do anything wrong and I am being yet again the suspicious girlfriend, well... than shit will really hit the fan. I really do not want to ruin the good vibe Shawn and I are in right now but I really have the feeling that he is lying to me... I just don't know what to do.

For the first 4/5 hours, since I got back from my run, I locked myself up in our hotel room. I kept thinking about what I was missing. I swear that I would have driven myself crazy if it wasn't for Tiffany who knocked on the door, asking for my opinion about what Shawn should wear. To be honest, I could care less about what Shawn is going to wear tonight but I needed to get out of the room. So, yeah. That is how I ended up in Tiffany's bedroom.

"Why are you here if you are not going to listen to me?." I turn my head away from view from outside the window to Tiffany, who is looking at me while holding up two shirt in the air.

"Sorry, Tiff."- I turn my body slightly as I try not the fall out of the windowsill. "What were you saying babe?."

She rolls her eyes in a sassy way. "What shirt you liked better."

I stare back at the for me both identical shirts. I shrugs my shoulders in response. "I don't know. They both look the same for me."

"The same?!." She screams loudly. "Girl, do you know what designers these..."

"Tiff."- I say, interrupting her. "You know I don't have any idea about designers."- nor do I care. "They look just a bit boring. That's all."

"Boring?."- she tests my words. I nod my head again. Just black shirts. Nothing special about it. "Wait... I think I have something then."

I follow Tiff with my eyes as she runs around through the room, opening different suitcase but closing them again a few seconds later. Tiffany is such a good person to help my mind get off things. I mean, it's kind of funny watching her running around the room for a damn shirt.

"What about this?." She suddenly says as she pulls a gilet out of one of the many suitcase. It actually looks really cool. It has a cowboy vibe but it's dope. I hope that she is planning on picking out another shirt for underneath it. Everyone will die if they see him in nothing but that gilet. "So?."

"Looks cool but what kind of shirt is he going to wear underneath it?."

"Don't worry. I will make sure that nobody else will see that Godly body of his. I got your back girl." Well, I need it.

I scroll through the tens of messages I received from Shawn throughout the day. I haven't been looking at my phone all day and I will see him in less then 5 minutes so, responding back isn't really necessary. I made a deal with myself that after the show I am going to talk to him. I am sure that he is going to demand some answers as soon as I see him but it will only ruin his mood for the show. Managing him is first and foremost my job, so my private life can wait. I will never do anything to jeopardize his career.