Rose [S.M]

In reconstruction

"Are you nervous?." Tiff says as she tries to divide her attention between me and the busy LA traffic.

"Yes." I answer simply. No need to hide it. You can read it off my face. If that wasn't enough than my new habit of biting my nails gives it probably away.

It's around 11 o'clock in the morning. You probably wondering if I accept the call from Shawn. Well, I didn't. I just thought that it would be better to talk face to face. I decided to give him a chance to explain himself. After all, he didn't kissed her or worse. That doesn't mean that what he did was okay, no absolutely not but maybe I did reacted a little bit too dramatically. That doesn't also mean, that I am not going to scream at him until he is deaf but at least I don't want to cut his dick off anymore. So, that is a start.

"Just don't give in too easily. Guys cannot know how much you actually like them and accept their shit. Otherwise they will do it again. Make him sweat. Believe me babe, that is the only way to make him understand."

"I wasn't planning on making it easy for him." To hell with making it easy for him. If he thinks that he can say sorry and everything is alright, then he is mistaken. I maybe tolerate this one time but the next time, we are done. I don't date little boys, who still want to play. If that is the type of shit he is in to... well, that is fine but not with me. I have come a long way for a guy to bring me down again.

"That's my girl." Tiff mumbles but after that, we both are quiet. No doubt that she can also feel the tension rising as we get closer to Shawn his house. I have honestly no idea how I am going to react once I see him. I don't know how I am going to feel. All I know is that I so extremely nervous that it makes me nauseous.

"Did you told anyone that we were going to drop by before we would head over to where the meeting is being held?." I say to Tiff without looking at her.

"No, not really. Shawn has no idea that we are dropping by." Tiff says as she turns the car into Shawn's condo street. I somewhere hope that he isn't home. I know that the conversation I am going to have with him, isn't going to be a pleasant one and I don't want it to effect his mood. He needs to be sharp for the meeting with his sponsor.

"Are you alright?." Tiff squeezes my arm as she parks in front of Shawn's condo. I turn my head to her and fake a smile.

"Yeah. I am fine." I take a deep breath and open the car door. Tiffany is next to me within seconds and together we walk the stone path of Shawn his condo.

Just like yesterday, I grab my keys out of my bag and slowly turn the lock of the front door.
It's quite in the house. You can literally hear a pin drop. But once I hear closely, I can hear some voices coming from the living room.

As I walk through the hallway, the voices become more clear. It's the voices of Shawn, Brian and Andrew.

"I am so afraid that I lost her man." Shawn say. My heart breaks as I hear the pain in his voice. I have to remind myself that he did this to us and that it's his fault, otherwise I would run over to him and hug all his sorrows away.

"I am sure that it will be fine once you talk to her and explain that it's all one big misunderstanding and unfortunate series of events." Andrew says, trying to be reasonable.

"Talk? Like I haven't tried that. I have been calling and texting her non stop but she wouldn't respond to anything. I don't even know where she is or if she is save."

"Bro, you are worrying too much. She will come when she is ready. The girl loves you, you know that." Brian speaks up, trying to calm his best friend down."

"She is with Tiffany, Shawn. I am 100% sure that she is okay."

Tiffany gently push my back and whispers "go." Into my ear. How the hell am I going to make an entrance? Without making it too obvious that we have been ear dropping for the last couple of minutes.