Rose [S.M]

Italian scratches

"You were amazing, Alessia." I give her a hug as soon as she walks of the stage. I am honestly so happy that Alessia, her best friend Liv and her team have joined us on the road. When Shawn came with the idea to invited Alessia to be his opening act, I really thought that she wasn't going to do it. Alessia is such a big and established name herself in the music industry but nevertheless she was extremely excited to join that she immediately said yes. It has been so much fun having those two crazy girls here.

"Good job, bro." Liv, Alessia's best friend came along with her on tour, just like Brian does with Shawn. Shawn, Alessia and I are actually trying to get those two together but so far it didn't really worked.

"The crowd was amazing. They are so energetic."

"Yeah. Shawn already said something about that after the meet and greet." There is something different about the Italian people. They scream louder and they are more present then other nationalities. I think it's because of the Italian 'fire' they have running through their veins.

"He is going to have so much fun." I nod my head in response. Well, I hope that he is able to have some fun tonight. The last couple of days, his energy has been low. Luckily he is not mentally in the same place anymore as he was in Cologne but still, I have to keep an eye on him. I will do anything to prevent it from happening again. I came up with this thing were we talk about our tops and flops from that day as we lay our heads down at night. This way he can talk about whatever is on his mind and don't hold his emotions in. We don't want an episode as bad as the one from 5 days ago.

"I am going to see you later guys." It's almost time for Shawn to preform. Ever since we started dating, there isn't one performance that I didn't gave him a 'good luck' kiss before he went on stage. It kinda became our thing. He seems to really like it and thinks it actually helps. Well, if he likes it, then that is what I am going to do.

Today I actually in the best mood ever. It's probably because we had a little bit of time to actually go and explore Turin. I also got a full 8 hour sleep last night, which is rare nowadays. You can see it on the crew's faces, as I walk backstage to Shawn's dressing room. Even though it's close to show time, everyone seems to be in a good mood. A few 'hello Rose' are echoing through the hallway as fasten my walk to where Shawn is. I thought that I had a little bit more time, then I actually have.

I catch Shawn as he walks out of the dressing room, already looking around him. As his eyes fall on me, a large smile appears on his face.

"Sorry I'm late. I lost time watching Alessia's performance."

"No problem babe. You made it. That is what counts." He is some serious better mood. He holds his hand out for me to take. I walk over to him and intertwine our fingers together.

"Nervous?." I make conversation as we walk towards the door, that is connected to the underground access to the stage.

"A bit. But nothing more than normal." Shawn is always nervous right before his performance but as soon as he plays the first chords, everything disappears. I think that every artist needs a healthy dosage of tension to perform their absolute best. It keeps the mind alert.

"That's positive, right?." I ask hopeful. He squeeze my hand lovingly and nod his head slightly.

"Three minutes until show time Shawn." Cez says as runs past us.

"Alright." Shawn says calmly, without even blinking one eye. "So I was thinking, what about later tonight movie marathon with some pizza's?."

"I thought the guys wanted to go out after the show?."

"Yeah, I heard them talking about it."

"But you don't want to go?."

"Nah, drowning myself with alcohol is the last thing I need right now." Yeah, Beta blockers, anxiety mixed with alcohol... bad combination. He nods politely to the security guard who holds the door open for us. Instantly the screams and yells of thousands of people entering my ears.