Rose [S.M]

Confronted with the past

Hi loves,

It's time for my exams again. So, that's the reason why I haven't really been active this week. I promise that next week, I am going to write a lot more new chapters. Until then, bare with me please!

I hope everyone is doing well!

O, here's a new chapter! Enjoy!

Xoxo, M.
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"Tomorrow is the big day."- I mumble as I lay with my head on Shawn's bare chest, while playing with the chains around his neck. "Are you excited?."

"Yes and no. Yes because it's finally here after all those months of hard work and no, because it's nerve racking at the same time. What if my fans don't like the show or what if my voice isn't good enough?."

"Hey."- I lift my body up and turn around to face him. "Don't think like that. You are going to drive yourself crazy."

"I know but I cannot help but to think about..."- he sighs and rubs his face in annoyance.

"Look at me."- I pull his hands away from his face and grab his cheeks in both of my hands. "There is nobody in this world, in my opinion, who is better than you."

"That is not 100% fair" He jokes as he pulls a bit of hair behind my ear, that is hanging in front of my eyes. "You are my girlfriend. You are kind off obligated to say that."

"Absolutely not. I say it because I mean it. It has nothing to do with me being your girl. I say it because I believe in you. I always have and I always will."

He face soften. "Your faith in me is overwhelming sometimes."

"I mean it though." There is no artist in this world, I respect more than Shawn. And I am not saying that because he is my boyfriend but because I truly believe that he can do anything he puts his mind to. I couldn't be more proud of him.

"I know you do but that doesn't mean that I cannot express how much I appreciate you. I don't say it enough but..."-

"You do enough baby."

"No, I don't. I should tell you more often how happy and how blessed I feel with you in my life. I couldn't do this without you by my side."

"Shawn..."- I say but I am cut off by a knock on the door. "Don't give me that much credit. You would be great with or without me." I say to him and push myself off his chest to open the hotel door. O yea, since Monday we moved to a hotel, here in Amsterdam. We tricked his fans into believe that he only just arrived a couple of days ago, when the reality is that he's here for a week already. He was smart enough to make videos for Instagram of places in London earlier but uploaded them a couple of days later, so he made it look like that he was still in London, when he actually already was here, with me in Amsterdam. It gave us the perfect couple of days, no interruptions, no fans, just us. We really needed the time to grown back together again. What thankfully seemed to have worked out in our favor. We are back and better then we were ever before.

"Hey."- He grabs my wrist, preventing me from getting out of the bed. "That is not true."- he stares deeply into my eyes, making sure that I am listening to him. "Don't say things like that. You are one of the most important people in my life. I value your opinion, together with my family, above anyone else. Don't ever degrade yourself like that, okay?."

Another knock is heard through the room. "Shawn, I have to get the door." Even though, I know that he is speaking his heart, I will never believe him for the 100%. For the simple reason that I know that he can do this without me. I don't contribute anything to his talent or kindness. It's him and him only people are standing hours and hours in the cold, just to get a glimpse of him in real life. Not me.