Rose [S.M]

The beginning of the end

"I swear I can hear your brain cracking."- I lift my head up, away from my essay, that has been given me major anxiety for the last hour and look at Andrew. "I cannot recall me giving you something to work on. So, what are you doing?."

"Essay."- I say simply. He knows how stressed out I am about the fast approaching deadline and the fact that I have not even written the first 100 words, doesn't help either. "I simply don't understand why I have to write this."

"Education is important."

"Well, yes... I know but why write it in 20.000 words? It's not the 80s anymore. I could think about at least 20.000 ways to do it better and more fun."

"Really? 20.000?."- he says with a smirk on his face and close his Macbook. "Wait, let me get a notebook then. Maybe some ideas will make me rich."

I roll my eyes and shake my head. "You are distracting me." If it is not Andrew how requires my attention, or the incoming emails, then it's the loud sound of one of Shawn's numbers. Andrew and I are the only two weirdos who are sitting backstage at a concert and are working. Well, I am doing both. I wish it was only work though...

Surprisedly enough Andrew doesn't respond. He is busy looking and typing something on his phone. Well, Good. Maybe this way I will reach the first 100 words for my essay tonight.

"You know what we could do."- Andrew says after 10 minutes of silence. "You already reached the amount of hours you have to get to work to pass for your internship."- really? That is fast. I know that Liz and Ali still have to work 3 months and are not sure if they are going to reach the required amount of hours but then again, I am not surprised. It feels like I have do nothing except from working since the day I started my internship. "So, I can approve your hours and then you are done with working."

"But then I cannot come to America for the tour." And I have to move back home again. That's the last thing I want. And I don't know if it's such a good idea for Shawn and I to spend so much time apart. You two are not talking right now and are basically in the same room. My subconscious reminds me. Well yes, she is right but I am going to change that. After his concert tonight, he and I will have a talk. It's really ridiculous that we still haven't spoken about what happened anyway.

"Of course you will still come with us. The only thing that will be different is that you wouldn't be working so, you will have time for writing your essay."

"But there is no way that I can pay for all my flights and hotels by my own." If they would sleep in normal, middle class hotels then it would have been fine but Shawn is sleeping in the best of the best. No way a poor student like myself can pay for that.

"I am sure that Shawn wants his girlfriend with him. No doubt that he will pay for you."

"But..."-

"I know. I know you don't like it but let me first talk to Shawn about it before you say no, okay?." Andrew knows me too well. Of course, I am not going to let Shawn pay for all my expenses. No doubt that he would but I am not a charity case and I definitely don't want to be treated like one.

"Alright." I sigh in defeat and look back to my MacBook. It's not like I am going to win this battle with him and it's not like my essay is going to write itself. So, back to work... where was I? O yeah... introduction.

"Tonight was so much fun." Brian yells as I get out of the van. "The energy was so high."

"Yea, it was so dope." I hear Shawn say from behind me as I smile at the guy, who waits and holds the door open for me. "Thank you."

I don't know who even came with this amazing idea but we ended up at the bowling center, somewhere in London. I waited for the entire show to go back to the hotel and finally have my much needed conversation with Shawn but of course, the group had other ideas. That is how we ended up here.