What if...? || Markhyuck

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[may/june 2019]

[donghyuck]

Minhyung was sixteen when he first came to Marco in the autumn of the 2013. At first, he washed the dishes in the restaurant and was carefully watched until Perez saw the potential in him. In the briefcase I got yesterday, the boss wrote that the boy had the specific look that appealed to him. He noticed the material for the killer, which would give an amazing effect, if only assemble its parts properly. I was very interested in this observation because he wasn't a fortune-teller to read from the tarot about the potential murderous predispositions of a teenager from a washing-up cloth. Marco had a sneaking suspicion that Minhyung's inclinations were due to the situation at home. A very well-structured family in which the excess of love for one's neighbor suffocates, causing a lack of some factor. I came to the conclusion that this factor is Lee's father, who left home when Jeno was ten years old, which is fourteen for Minhyung. However, divorce is not enough to start a mafia life. When the parents break up, the world is not coming to an end, so I felt that the catalyst of the older brother was stuck in a slightly different place. He was somewhere where Marco's insightful eyes could not reach.

The next few pages were boring notes about observing Lee's behavior in the workplace and then the assimilation process in the new environment, which apparently didn't last long. The boy treated this promotion as a chance to fill the gap, which was free time. His schoolmates didn't accept him, causing in him feelings of rejection and constant loneliness. Marco also mentions his relationship with brother deteriorating. Jeno isolated himself from Minhyung at school and often made his life miserable in various ways, also encouraging his friends to do so.

At this point I needed a moment to breathe. I didn't want to believe what I've just read. Jeno wasn't like that. He treated everyone cordially, he was always helpful, honest, willing to act. Such a good soul simply. Beyond my understanding, at this point was the fact that he was able to bully Mark so much that he almost beat him to death in the yard outside the school. There had to be something more here. These things don't happen between siblings. At least I thought so because I never had any siblings myself. Maybe being an only child had some advantages. Like for example not having urge to kill somebody.

In some ways I'm glad that only I am the person to fully understand him. We have established a unique bond and I promise it very well. We have a secret that makes us strong, good friends. So the boss wrote in a personal note attached to the briefcase. It came from a six-month break between juvie and a therapy center to which the boy was sent next. I haven't found anything else about Minhyung's private relationship with the boss. Apparently, the boss thought it was too secret and personal to share with me. In any case, they were very close and at the moment it seemed to me that this information is worth noting for the future. It is always better to know what kind of ties connects who with who. This made things much easier in terms of communication and information extraction. A good border marker. The same was with names. In basement I was Haechan and so his name was Mark. I started to think that it will be the best to erase his Korean name out of my dictionary at work place.

There wasn't much here from Minhyung's treatment. Dry statements that, of course, has clear problems with aggression but he is young, so group therapy brings great successes and corrective methods work. Minhyung at first alienated, in time even befriends a friend from the group. Individual therapy obviously indicates significant improvement but the center recommends additional tests and asks the opinion center to prepare a psychological and psychiatric expertise for the diagnosis of alexithymia, as the pupil doesn't seem to understand the content of the workshop on emotions, has problems with their expression and tasks consisting of putting themselves in someone else's situation and describing the feelings of both him and the person on the other side of the role played.