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All I Want {Songfic}

#blacklivesmatter

All I want is nothing more
To hear you knocking at my door

I look at the door, still in my unrealistic mindset that she'll be home soon. Every time there's a knock, my first thought is she forgot her keys. But that's not true.

'Cause if I could see your face once more
I could die a happy man, I'm sure

I wish I could see her one more time. Maybe then I could move on. I wanna see her smile, and laugh, or maybe even cry. Anything. I just want to see her. But I can't.

When you said your last goodbye
I died a little bit inside

When she spoke her last breathe, and told me she loved me as she went, it felt like everything inside me stopped working. Everything shattered. She is gone, and took a part of me with her.

I lay in tears in bed all night
Alone without you by my side

I lay in what was our shared bed. Tears run off my face and onto the pillow. I miss her so Goddamn much. I can't sleep because if I close my eyes, I only see her. She haunts me.

But if you loved me
Why'd you leave me?

She told me she loved me, but she left me. Left me on this Earth all alone. We were supposed to move on together, and now she's left me.

Take my body
Take my body

Part of me want to join her. But I know that isn't what she wants. It just hurts so much, I want the hurt to go away.

All I want is
And all I need is

But then, there is only one ting I truly want.

To find somebody
I'll find somebody
Like you

And that's to have her back. To have her in my arms again. To share our bed again.

'Cause you brought out the best of me
A part of me I'd never seen

She brought out something in me that I didn't know existed. A part of me I loved. A part of me that will never return.

You took my soul and wiped it clean
Our love was made for movie screens

She saved me. And now she's gone. I thought we'd be forever. I thought we'd be the perfect cliché couple.

But if you loved me
Why'd you leave me?

But she's gone. She left me. She told me she loved me, and I know she did, but she left me. And god, does it hurt so much.

Take my body
Take my body

Sometimes I feel like nothing is worth it. Getting out of bed, hygiene, eating, it's all pointless. The girl I love is dead.

All I want is
And all I need is
To find somebody
I'll find somebody

All I want is her back. Is that so much to ask? It's not unfair. She didn't deserve that. I don't deserve this. We're good people, we were happy people, we were going to get married. Why'd it have to be like this? Because some dumbass in a truck decided to drive drunk? Decided to hit her side of the car, and leave me practically unharmed? It should have been me. I wish it had been me.

Oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Why couldn't it have just been me? Or hell, if the driver had just killed me too. I hate being here with out her.

If you loved me
Why'd you leave me?

I sit in front of her grave. "I thought you loved me. You told me you loved me. Why couldn't you have held on." I sobbed in front of the stone.

Take my body
Take my body

"I want to die, I want to join you. I hate everything. I can't do this without you. I love you too much." I can't stop the tears, the rambling, the trembling.

All I want is
And all I need is
To find somebody
I'll find somebody
Like you, oh

"I want you back. I need you back. Goddammit, I need you. Why'd you have to go?" I sob. I'm hugging the stone.

"Please, Jaiden, why can't you come back?"