Under Your Nose : A One Direction Fan Fiction

Jill POV : Part 59

I have to say that life right now isn't too terrible.  I got a nice raise at work.  My brother is coming to see me.  Louis and I have actually been getting along.  For about 2 months we have been regularly talking on the phone and Skyping when we can.  I don't know if it means we are getting back together but it's nice to have him in my life again.  We have reached the halfway point of the guys being away.  It's already June.  Time has flown by, that doesn't mean it has made things any easier.

I feel like I still need to keep my guard up with Louis.  I don't want to lead him on to think that we are definitely going to be getting back together.   Don't get me wrong, I still love him, I just don't know if I could go through this again.  They're becoming more and more popular.  The next time a world tour comes around I don't want to get tossed aside again.  I am not going to worry about that until they come back.  There is no point.

We haven't put a label on anything but I haven't been actively looking for dates with other guys either.  I have just been enjoying my life with my friends.  I can't wait until my brother visits in a week.  He's never been outside of the states so it'll be fun to show him around.  Louis and I have plans to talk tonight. I hope I can stay awake.  He is all the way on the other side of the world in California so it's a crazy time difference.  Luckily it's Friday.  I'll probably just sleep and set an alarm to wake me up in time to talk to him.

Harry and I have been texting a lot.  It's back to old times between us.  He tells me how much Louis misses me and I tell him to go to hell.  Our texts are just one big joke with one another.  It's nice to have that back.  I know for a while he felt in the middle of our drama but now he doesn't have to feel that way.  I love having my best friend back.

I've been keeping my reconciliation with Louis secret.  I don't need it getting out.  The media will just make up whatever they want about us.  I'd rather have the fans hate me than the speculation to begin about what it means.  The only ones who know are the guys.  I get asked about our relationship just about every day at work but of course I work for a radio station so they're just trying to get an exclusive.  I always just answer I have moved on.

I make something to eat when I get home from work and as soon as I am finished eating I head straight to bed.  I need to get as much sleep as I can before Skyping with Louis.  I don't want to be dead tired.  I want to be wide awake.

My alarm is yelling at me.  I know I set it for a reason but that doesn't mean I still don't hate it.  I finally turn it off and slowly lift my head off the pillow.  I have my laptop on and Sype open, I just need to get my eyes open.  I grab myself a glass of water and wait for Louis to text me that they're back at the hotel.  This whole Skyping thing hasn't been so bad.  He didn't have to end it.  We would have worked it out.

I finally get my text from Louis and I look in the mirror to make sure my hair isn't crazy with bed head.  I get my call notification and answer the call.  His face pops up on the screen and I wave.  It's actually refreshing to see him.  He's been so busy so it's been a week or so since I've been able to see him.  "Hey Louis," I say.  I can't really hide how happy I am to see him.  I'm sure I have a goofy look on my face.

"Hey babe, was it hard to stay awake?" he asks as he leans back on the couch he is sitting on.  He puts his hands behind his head and then holds them up, like he is stretching.

"I just woke up a few minutes ago...just for you.  You should feel special."

He chuckles.  "I do.  When is Brian visiting?"

"Next week.  I can't wait.  I haven't seen him since I moved over here."

He leans in close to his webcam, so close that I can only see his eyes and nose.  I guess he notices a confused look on my face.  "I just wanted to be closer to you."  He leans back to the way he was sitting.  "I just miss you so much."

I can feel myself getting emotional but I use everything in me not to show it.  When it comes to Louis I still have my guard up, of course not as much.  It almost feels like nothing happened sometimes.  "Only 6 more months," I manage to squeak out.  "Not that I am counting or anything."

"No of course not," he says then winks.  We sit in silence for what feels like 5 minutes.  I am just watching him and he just watches me.  It's nice to just be together even if it is over the computer.  I find myself wondering where we would be in our relationship if they didn't have this tour.  Would I still be in this house or would we all still be living with Harry?  "...you." Oh crap, I was totally spaced out.

I feel my face getting red with embarrassment.  I was so caught up in my own thoughts I have no idea what he said.  "I'm sorry I was distracted.  What did you say?"

He puts his hand over his face to hide himself.  "No never mind. It's better you didn't hear it."

"Come on, Louis, tell me.  I'm sorry I was lost in my thoughts."

He looks down and not at the camera.  "I said I love you," he says in a low voice but it was loud enough for me to hear it.

Before I can say anything back to him he disconnects the call.  "I love you too."