the girl with all of the choices

f o r t y

4309 words

april thirteenth- sides are taken

It had been two weeks. Two weeks since detention. Two weeks since the last time I saw him. Two weeks since I had lost his trust. 

The Easter holiday was boring as ever. Fawn came over almost every day. I had told her everything that had happened, so she would come over just to lay in my bed with me. She always brought snacks and movies to watch. I appreciated it, but the days almost always ended with me in tears. I loved her and her company, but I just wanted Draco.

Draco.

He thought I didn't trust him. The thing was, he was the only person I trusted with my entire being. I had told him things that even Fawn didn't know. 

I just couldn't trust him with this. 

And so it had been two weeks. We got back to school last night. He didn't visit me on the train, nor would he meet my eyes in the Great Hall. I didn't want to pressure him. I just wanted to talk to him. To actually explain. To know what he was thinking.

He's thinking that you lied to him for three months.

Yeah...

Last night at the Feast, Umbridge announced new decrees. 

"Educational decree number one-hundred and twenty-five: Students are not permitted to be in possession of works of literature written by muggle or half-breed authors." 

"Educational decree number one-hundred and twenty-nine: Students must observe new restrictions regarding Library and Common Room access."

"Educational decree number one-hundred and thirty-three: Any unauthorised textbooks will be confiscated immediately from the offending student." 

It was absolutely ridiculous. She was taking everything good about Hogwarts and ruining it. 

But it was also scary. I didn't doubt Umbridge to march herself into my common room and search my dormitory for all of the books I had stolen from Dad. I also didn't doubt Professor Sprout to come to kick us out of the common room at curfew, so if the pink terror were to come in, at least we wouldn't get in trouble.

Everyone was miserable, albeit for different reasons.

Ainsley was upset because she didn't have any time to see Fred anymore. Trips to Hogsmeade had been cancelled two months ago, and since Umbridge had been stricter about free time, they could never meet up. They had been writing to each other, but we all knew it wasn't the same.

Fawn was upset because she couldn't spend her days in the library. She also hated not being able to stay up in the common room. She always fell asleep super late, but she never wanted to keep us from sleeping so she would stay in the common room reading until she felt sleep tugging at her eyelids. Now, she would pace aimlessly around our room while we tried to sleep in an attempt to become drowsy sooner. She was miserable because she was a creature of habit. Not being able to do her nighttime routines was damaging. It was all damaging, really. 

And well, we all knew why I was miserable.

Our house used to be one of joy. Even if you were upset, you couldn't help but smile around the people in the common room. They would offer you hot chocolate and a shoulder to cry on. Now, everyone stayed in their rooms for the most part, and even sneaking into the kitchen to grab a late-night snack was too dangerous. 

Of course, last night we all sat out there. It was refreshing to be in each other's company again after the holiday. Not much was said. We just sat there, relishing in the sweet presence of other people. Even Ernie wasn't trying to crack any jokes.