Wainwright Series 2: A Doll Not to be Replace

CHAPTER 39

KOHLEN

Fuck Codhille Sotello.

"What do you think you are doing, Codie?" I burst into his room, spotting him on the floor while packing his clothes. I slam the door behind him and march towards him. "You are going mad! We tried talking to you, and now you are doing this?!" I pull him back, but he doesn't budge.

Ilang araw kong sinubukan na kausapin ito. Na paalalahanin itong tutulungan namin siya. Ngunit sarado na pala ang isip nito. Nagdesisyon siya na ikapapahamak ng kaniyang buhay.

"STOP IT, CODHILLE!"

"Don't even think about it, Kohl." Nagawa pa nitong magbanta at binawi ang kaniyang kamay sa akin.

"You can't leave, Codie! May mga bagay pa tayong kailangan na ayusin dito sa mga Wainwright!"

"The only way to fix this is to find Khanarie."

Codhille officially lose his marbles. He is severely obsess for Khanarie. And he doesn't give two cents while we are on a shouting match with each other.

"You haven't lost a single person in your life, Kohl. Please, leave me be."

I balled my fist. Restraining myself not to punch him. "That's not true! I'm about to lose my best cousin... So, I understand what you are going through... But I won't let you lose yourself. That is why I am here."

Hinding hindi mangyayari ulit ang dati. Hindi ko kayang mawalan ng kaibigan, ang tinuring ko na parang kapatid.

"Codie, if you talk to us, we can resolve this. We may have a greater chance finding Khanarie. Let's put our wits together and move forward."

Natulala naman ito. Akala ko ay pumasok na sa kaniyang kokote ang aking mga sinabi.

"We're done talking, Kohl." He tucks his dagger knife away after he pointed it at me.

"You can't be serious." Napailing ako ng maliit dito. "YOU ARE MAKING US WORRY EVEN MORE!"

"Stop worrying, Kohlen!" He stands again and walks to his bed.

Hindi na ako makapagtimpi pa dito. "You aren't listening anymore, Codhille! I am trying to help you out here, but you still ignore me?!" Hinila ko ito pabalik at dinuro ito, "Just so you know, you are not the only one suffering and gets to be a sad prince because someone stole your candy! You can also consult any of the Wainwright sisters if you have to. Just—just give yourself the break and communicate with us."

"The conversation ends here. I am not anyone's responsibility to babysit."

Hindi na ito ang Codhille na pinsan ko. Nawawala na sa landas ang dati kong kinilala na may kontrol sa sarili. Na nakakapagpasiya kahit na tinalikuran na siya ng mundo. And this isn't it. He... "You are indeed crazy!"

"Love makes us do even the craziest things, Kohl. At some point, you may see this really selfish, but in reality, some of us will still do it as it is the bottom-line of our sanity." Tinalikuran na naman ako nito at binitbit ang kaniyang mga bagahe. Out of impulse, I pull him back for a punch.

We staggered. Stumbling back and forth. Throwing more punches to knock senses on each other. And blood splatters on the floor and on our shirts.

Mabibigat na paghinga ang pinakawala namin. Umiikot na ang aking mundo at hindi ako makakita nh maayos, pero ayos lang iyon. Because Codhille remembers how stupid he is right now.

"I-I'm so sorry, Kohl." Aabutin na sana ako nito pero tinabi ko ang kamay nito.

Umiling ako sa kaniya at sinubukan na tumayo. "I'm not buying any bullshit sorry from you." Napapunas ako sa aking labi at napangiwi din sa hapdi. I curse again and leave him behind.