Her Wings (PSS, #2) ✔️

Chapter 78: A Serenade To Forever

Chapter 78: A Serenade To Forever

YEARS ago, I was so scared that I might not be able to do what others can. I was so afraid that I would always be the last in line, in whatever circumstance and situation. Because I thought that whoever falls on the last is the weakest. And that thought was actually the one that made me weak. Because in the end, it doesn't really matter how far did you go when you started. It is how far could you still go without aiming other's trophies.

Lahat tayo'y may kaniya-kaniyang panahon ng pagbunga, pamumulaklak. It just takes a lot of patience, effort, determination, courage and discipline. Kung sa iniirog mo nga nag-eefort ka, para sa pangarap mo pa kaya? And it's not actually the people who's drowning you, it is your own mind, thoughts, beliefs. Pwede mo naman silang hayaan to be honest hindi ba, but because of your pride you don't let it slip and then you over think. Little by little you are drowning, let us take note that drowning is hard especially when you don't know to get yourself up. You could die.

Akala ko'y ang mga nakapaligid sa akin ang siyang nagpapabagsak sa akin, ngunit mali ako. Given na lahat ng kilos mo'y mapapansin ng lahat lalo na iyong mali, kasi nature na ng lahat iyon, human nature ika nga, natural na iyon. Ang kaso ay ako mismo ang nagkulong sa sarili kong hawla.  I was so stupid to blame the other and let myself suffocate with the bad thoughts that was actually wrong, that turned out to be wrong. Hindi lahat ng inaakala natin ay tama lalo na kung hindi ka lalabas sa iyong hawla upang alamin kung ano iyon.

I thought Leemar, the professors in the Kingdom, my family abandoned me. But they actually waited for me so that I could learn. It was just me who caged myself because of fear and overthinking. Inilipat lang ako sa aking bagong silid upang ma protektahan, hindi nila ako tinanggalan ng kalayaan. Ako mismo ang lumayo at piniling mag-isa. At dahil iyon sa takot. Fear would eat you up when everyone seemed to look down on you, good thing someone opened my closed door, my closed world. But what if that someone didn't arrived, I must've probably rotting in my own cage now.

To everyone who couldn't step out on their coons because of fear, self shaming, it's time. Don't be scared and never ask for other's abilities, other's trophies, do your own and shine. Time by time, you'll be able to do everything within your limits and beyond. I know there are people out there who are cheering for you, appreciate them and free yourself from any kinds of fears and hesitations.

Open your heart for another light and be the light those who are still living in the dark.

What's making you scared? Your fragmented wings? Your broken soul? Judgments? Critics? It's a part of life because we're breathing. Let them be and reflect to be a better person. Hindi mo pa man nabubuksan ang iyong pakpak sa ngayon, malamang ay naghahanda iyan para sa isang pangmalakasang pagbukas kung saan marami ang matutulungan, maliligtas, kung kailangan kinakailangan ng lahat.

And remember, you are always worthy. Since the day you were born, you were loved. Hindi ka bubuhayin kung hindi ka mahal. Hindi ka magiging katulad mo ngayon kung wala kang halaga. Butterflies don't actually see their wings so they don't know how beautiful they are. If you can't see how beautiful, worthy, useless, and loved you are, then find time and look for a mirror to see a person having such beautiful wings. Appreciate, just appreciate.

If you are a late bloomer, don't be sad or don't be shy. Go, learn and learn until your mind is open enough for another harder level.

I was so lucky to realize all of these.

THE night was so glorious, majestic, wonderful, everything the word beautiful could connate for. I am now wearing the crown, but I immediately stand down on the throne to level with the others. I maybe the Beryllion's queen now, but I won't let myself look higher than anyone else. Because I am still Emerald, and will always be Emerald.

And yes I am the Queen of this Kingdom and yet I still have lots of things I don't know. Like seriously, hindi ko alam kung ano'ng okasyon ngayon at halos kompleto sa hall. Hence, I just walked down the throne stairs to be with my loving subjects. I want to be with these people because they are the one who's making Beryllion a wonderful kingdom. The crown and throne will not help me fight the Kingdom against enemies, it is the people so I will stand with the people and for the people.

The laughs, smiles on everyone are glorious and I couldn't ask for more. Kanina ko pa rin tinitingala si Ezekiel kung saan na iyon nagsususuot ngunit wala akong makita ni anino niya. Wag niyang sabihing nakikisayaw na siya sa iba o nanggaga babae, papabalatan ko talaga siya ng buhay.

"Ehem,"

Ang kwentuhan at tawanan ng bawat isa ay nahinto nang magsalita sa mikropono ang isang pamilyar na tinig. Magkahalong pakiramdam ang umusbong sa akin, iyon bang inis, pagkairita at pagkatuwa dahil nasa entablado si Ezekiel kasama ang orchestra.

"Ano'ng ginagawa mo d'yan?" Sigaw ko na siya naman ikinalingon ng lahat sa akin, "Huwag kang maglaro d'yan, Chevalier!"

Nagtawanan naman ang lahat ng nakarinig. Ngunit pumapalakpak na lumapit sa akin si Kate, maging si Lirech at Phia ay ganoon rin kaya naman taka akong napalingon sa kanila.

"Pasensya na, wala sa katinuan ang Chevalier natin ngayon." Natatawa kong saad ngunit nakakaramdam na rin ako ng kakaibang kaba at nerbiyos. Jusko, anong palabas 'to ni Ezekiel? Siya ba ang may pakana ng lahat ng 'to?

"First of all, I would like to greet Queen Emerald. Not because of the crown on her head but for easily getting my heart." Lakas loob na saad ni Ezekiel sa mikropono na siyang nagpasigaw sa lahat.

What the heck? My fragile heart cannot take this.

Ganoon na lamang ako pinamulahan. Nang lumingon ako sa karamihan, saka ko lang napagtanto na naroroon na rin maging ang mga nakita ko sa lungsod. Inakala nga pala nilang mag-asawa kami, ano na lamang kaya ang iniisip nila ngayon?

Gayunpaman ay talagang napakalakas ng paghuramentado ng puso ko, hindi matatawaran.

"Ezekiel, ano ba!" Kinikilig at kinakabahan kong sigaw.

"Queen Emerald, I'm not prepared for this. But— bago pa ko dagain magtatagalog nalang ako," natural na saad ni Ezekiel na muling nagpatawa sa lahat.

Nang lingunin ko ang aking Ama at Ina ay nalilito rin ang mga ito ngunit hindi rin maalis ang ngiti sa kanilang bibig dahil sa pagiging normal ni Ezekiel.

"Kagalang-galang na mga Maharlika ng Beryllion, ipagpaumanhin ninyo ang kakapalan ng aking mukha ngunit hindi ko na kaya pang itago ang pag-ibig ko para kay Emerald." Malumanay na saad ng Chevalier na kanina pa nagpapatalon ng puso ko.

Ano'ng ginagawa niya?

"I am not the best singer in the world, but for my princess, for my queen, I'll do everything."

Ganoon na lamang ang pagdagundong ng puso ko nang lumingon si Ezekiel sa aking Ama, at nagsimula na ngang tumutugtog ang orchestra. Sa unang tunog pa lamang ay napaluha na ako, paano ba naman kasi hinihingi na ni Ezekiel ang bendisyon ng aking mga magulang sa pamamagitan ng kanta nang buong tapang.

George Ezekiel, how can I say no? Hindi pa nga siya nagsisimula napapa-oo na ako, buysit na Kalapating 'to.