In the Melancholy Moonlight

Chapter LXXX: Only a Moment Ago

July 1 - 2:03 PM

Hey, Lu, I don't know what time it ends, but I'm here whenever, okay?

July 1 - 11:27 PM

I'm heading to bed, Lu, but if you need anything, I'll keep the book close. I don't know if I'll sleep anyway, but... well, I'm here if you need me. I hope everything's going alright for you.

July 2 - 4:01 AM

I just had the worst nightmare. Please write me soon to let me know you're okay. I know I'm probably just being paranoid, but, well, you were involved in this nightmare. I need to know you're okay.

July 2 - 11:22 AM

I hope you're alright. I'm sorry if I said something wrong. Please just tell me if I did. You've never been angry with me, Lu, and I'd hate to start now...

July 2 - 8:01 PM

I didn't see anything on the Muggle news about an attack. I hope you're okay.

July 3 - 6:52 AM

I'll keep the diary close today. Please write me.

July 4 - 5:47 AM

Please, Lu, just one word. I just need to know you're okay. I'm going to ask if anyone else has heard from you. The solitude is killing me.

July 5 - 8:02 PM

If talking about him is too much, do you want to try good thing bad thing? Just two sentences every day? That would be better than this.

July 6 - 3:58 PM

Should I try sending a letter? Maybe if you see that you'll remember this diary exists? Would that get your attention? Would you remember me then? Or are you remembering me and just not wanting to talk to me? I don't know how to feel, but scared is as close as I can get to describing this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. What did I do wrong? Please tell me.

July 7 - 9:23 AM

Nobody else has heard from you, either, even though everyone's apparently tried to send letters. Ron said you must just be grieving to yourself. And that's fine, really it is, if that's what you need, but please just tell me. We don't have to talk about it, we could talk about anything you want. Good things, bad things, stupid things. I just want to talk to you when you're ready to talk to me. Please, Lu, I just want to hear from you, I just need to know you're okay.

July 8 - 7:09 PM

I just sent Hedwig back to the others. Once she returns, I'll send a letter to you. Part of me feels like I should stop writing, I don't want to be a bother, but I just can't bring myself to let a day go by without writing at least a sentence. I don't want you to think I'm not thinking about you, because I am. More and more every day, really. If you want me to stop writing you, just say so, but until then, I'm not giving up on you, Lu. You've never given up on me. I'm right here for you, whenever you're ready.