Soul Mate

Chapter 14

Sebastian's pov

That morning, all those months ago when I realized who my mate was, I fled. I had to. Not only did I flee from farmers market, I ran out of town the following morning. I know , coward right! That's what your all thinking. But I couldn't face him, not in the state I was in. I wasn't in the right frame of mind to deal with the situation. At least not yet.
So when Casper dropped me off, I  ran straight to my safe haven. The basement. Casper didn't try to pry anything out of me on the drive home, he knew I would tell him when I was ready.
How could this be??
The guy without a wolf was my mate! It was absurd.
But again the goddess didn't make mistakes. its what I was taught to believe. She made no mistakes.
But maybe this once??
My wolf was trying to fight me, he wanted to go meet the boy. I wasn't ready. If I went to him now, I would end up saying and doing something I would regret.
I needed time. Time to process.
To say I was shocked was putting it lightly. I dropped on the little couch and held my head between my hands. Then an image of Satin flashed through my mind. I grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled so hard tears sprung to my eyes. Then I screamed so hard and loud. I was a mess.
I heard footsteps coming down the basement stairs and with how light they were, I knew it was my mom. Seconds later she walked through the door. I was sobbing already. She rushed to me and pulled me into her arms.

" It can't be, I t can't be, no, no..no.." I kept  muttering as she held me.

"Seb what's going on, please talk to me. "

I pulled out of her arms and sprung to my feet..
" My mate mom! I realized them. And am not ready to claim them. Not now, not ever. I just can't!" I say, tears still streaming down my face.
Mom got to her feet and walked to me. She grabbed my arm and led me back to the couch.

" You need to calm down. And don't act irrationally son. It could lead to dire consequences. I know you were in love with satin but..." I cut her off.

" It's not just that mom!" I yelled. She flinched. I never raised my voice at her, no matter how upset I was. This must be way beyond my control.
"My mate is a guy! The Blair's kid without a wolf! How could the goddess do this?? What the hell was she thinking??" I said so loud.

" You need to shut your mouth Seb! Not another word about the goddess or her choices. Do you hear me!" Mom said. Her voice now hard. She was mad.
I shut it immediately. My mom was fierce when mad. I couldn't deal with that too.

I dropped down and started weeping. Actual weeping!! I just didn't know what to do!
Mom joined me on the floor and started to rub my back.

" It's okay, it's gonna be okay. You've got to trust the goddess and her plans for you. She makes no mistakes son. I know this for a fact. Don't do anything rush. Take your time, think things through with a clear head. It's clear your not in the right frame of mind." She said.
She was right about one thing though.
I wasn't in the right state of mind. Hadn't been for awhile.

" I need to think mom. Please leave me alone." I said.
She nodded. Got to her feet and walked to the door. Before she walked out though, she said

" What ever you do, do not reject him." then closed the door softly behind her.

I couldn't stay here, I needed to leave. It was the first thought that came to mind.
I got off the floor,  grabbed a travel bag and started throwing random shit in it. I almost emptied out my closet. I threw in my toiletries as well. My wolf was practically clawing at my insides.

" Please understand me onyx. This is what we need for now. Time to figure this out." I said to my wolf. His name is onyx. He was my friend, the other side of me. He tried to understand when I was madly in love with satin. I just hoped he would bare with me now.
I was really testing his limits, I know. Its hard for a wolf to stay away from their mate, which is why  it was so hard on him.