❝Kid, don't do that!❞ It was as if I could almost feel him smile-Hear it in his voice, let the warmth of it deluge my heart.
❝Why not?❞
❝It tickles, Allan.❞ I looked into his eyes as he chuckled. Just then i noticed a strange spark of uncertainty a...
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He was scared. Grasping for air like he'd seen a ghost. Well he had technically seen a ghost though, it was nightmare. I have no clue what the nightmare was. But it was bad enough to scare him for a good 20 minutes.
He woke up and kissed me. It was sudden but cute. He liked me. I liked him. And now its showing. We got off the car and walked towards the carnival, his hands locked in mine. Maddie was standing there with another girl who I assumed was Lily, her girlfriend.
"Hey!" Allan poked Maddie's shoulder from the back. The two girls turned and greeted us. Lily was... different. She and Maddie were poles apart if it came to personalities and it was seen. Maddie was more of a sweatshirt girl and Lily seemed to be a top-notch barbie doll. She was wearing some dress and it looked exquisite.
"So this is Jace." Maddie was introducing us to Lily. "And this is Allan, Jace' boyfriend." Lily's eyes widened on 'boyfriend' as Allan smiled and gave me a quick look. I knew he liked how Maddie called him my boyfriend. It was fucking cute.
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Maddie and Lily were with me and Allan till Allan decided we could use some privacy.
It's 12:30 PM and there is barely any sunlight in the sky. It's cloudy as though it will rain and windy with a very cold blow and here I am roaming around with a cute guy with glasses in a crowded little carnival, holding hands.
I like how he is trying to be around me. He is giving things a shot even though he is fucking nervous deep down inside. I know it's his first time falling in love. And for all I know, it still feels the first time for me.
It feels real. True. And I sure as hell know this feeling is very very new.
It feels different. He feels different. I've dated girls and probably all sorts of them but Allan is way better than any of the girls I screwed.
I am fucking confused about everything and how things are happening so suddenly and how Allan makes me feel but it feels good. It feels great.
And he looks fucking hot!
Like I have never been attracted to a guy be it physically or in any other way possible but I am strong around Allan and I have this strange urge that I wanna feel him in my arms. I know its fucked up in a whole lot of different ways but Allan gets me worked up. I don't think twice anymore before my words come out. I don't get mad around him naturally. It's like I am vulnerable when he is around. And I never fucking get it why.
There's this insane motion—this vibration, a bloody sensation that he sets deep down into me when we are in any physical contact. And the fact that I want it more.
I want more and more of it cus its effing new and fresh and it's just so fucking refreshing. I want him to be all over me. I want him more around me cus I want to kiss him and need him cus being like this makes me feel fucking amazing.
Yeah sure I've screwed a lot of girls but I am not screwing up with this cute dumb nerdy music addict cus I guess I feel way too much for him than I ever did for anyone else.
