Still Holding On

four

It was break. I just had a brief conversation Mr. Sanderson about how long will I have to go to the centre. It was a bit peculiar-How going to the centre reminded me even more of suicide. It shouldn't right? The purpose of the centre was to help you get over suicidal thoughts. But lately going there has only just helped in increasing such thoughts.

But doesn't it make sense. It's my life, so why don't I get to choose what to do with it. Why don't I get to decide what i need and what i don't.

It's all a gigantic mess in my head and i don't even know why.

I entered the cafeteria. And as usual people were giving me those death stares. Things will never be better considering all the outcomes and circumstances of all the actions i could take at this very minute. I mean sure if only I could leave this would all be gone. These death stares, this gossip about my gender. It could all be left in the past if only i get up and walk away. But where?! Where will i walk away to? Everything I have ever had is here. Parents, family, school everything.

I am walking towards the back corner of the cafeteria. There is one table always empty for some reason in either one of the corners. So I am walking towards the empty table when Bianca and Jenna Hall look at me and giggle or chuckle. The perfect cheerleader sisters of Hamden High.

Looking at Bianca and Jenna reminds me of Ashley. Ashley Norton Bennett-The cheerleading captain of Hamden High and basically the most famous girl in town. She never fails to make headlines, be it about her cheerleading skills or her relationships. Holy hell she was also expecting a baby with Cole Alden last week, and that rumour escalated pretty fast.

And by that, Cole Alden. His parents and my parents have been really close since the past 13 years. Everyone seems to love Cole. He is the type of guy that you know will win the homecoming king in the future. He is sweet and polite and all sorts of good adjectives you could fit in for a personality. Cole was one of the only few people that didn't give a single fuck about what people talked about me. He always smiles at me when he sees me, be it in the locker room after our gym class or in the hallway every morning when he uses his locker.

But how could Cole Alden ever be with Ashley Bennett. Ashley had the worst nature, something like a school badie if that's actually a term. She locked me in a washroom stall once for the winter formal dance last year. I was "killing all the buzz" at the party according to her. And Cole of all people was something like a school cutie. Ugh rich kid's drama.

He was sitting on the table ahead of me. With Bram, Ali and Maddie. Bram was Cole's closest friend, Ali was the school nerd, Maddie was openly lesbian. God forbid, why does she have it so easy. All she had to do was get drunk at a party and scream I am gay and that's how she came out. No one objected her sexuality! Then why mine?

I looked away and started fidgeting with the watter bottle on my tray. All of a sudden I heard the cafeteria door blast open and almost everyone gasped. I looked up and right there was Ashley. Walking in her cheerleading dress or whatever it's called. She was chewing a bubble gum. What a badie. Blonde hair, red lips, glitter eyes-I bet half the school wants her attention.

She walked straight up to Cole's table where Ali was sipping juice from a bottle and Maddie and Bram were laughing at something. Cole was checking his phone.

All of a sudden, Ashley grabbed the bottle from Ali's hand and snatched it out of his mouth. Within just milliseconds she splashed all of the juice on Cole's face. OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!

Cole threw his phone on the table and jerked out of his seat taking no time. WHAT THE FUCK WAS HAPPENING OH MY GOD!!!!!!!! Ashley looked into Cole's eyes, and said something way more louder than she should have.

"Just being the obsessive bitch you think I am!" THIS WAS KILLING ME JESUS CHRIST!!

She slowly tapped Cole's left cheek twice with her hand and reached out for her mouth. She took out the bubble gum she was chewing and slowly stuck it to Cole's phone. After which she traced her lip with her thumb. She gave off a devastating sweet smile and started walking backwards to the door with the same attitude and speed she came in with. Bianca and Jenna followed.

With utter shock i looked around the room to see everyone had their phones in their hands recording what just happened. A few seconds later when Cole was still standing there half wet, the same guy from earlier that i bashed into came in rushing. He asked "What the fuck just happened here?!"

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"So she just spilled juice on his face? Like just like that?" Jessica's voice seemed just a bit different through the video call.

"HELL YEAH!!!! Everyone is fucking posting pics and vids on their stories. CHECK NOW JESS!" I screamt.

"Jeez!" She exclaimed.

"Exactly!!!"

"Lord, I miss Hamden High." She sighed.

"Just Hamden High?" I chuckled. She knew I was talking bout Nick

Story time: Nick and my beloved sister-Jessica dated for 4 years straight and then broke up right before she went to Harvard a month ago. They were cute. But the cuties eventually got disturbing after 3 years of the perfectly beautiful relationship.

"I don't miss him, you dummy. I miss you." She answered.

I fell back on my bed and buried my head in my favourite red cushion. "You can not be anymore cringy, Jess!"

"You have to go to the centre today right?" I wish she had forgotten.

"I don't wanna jesssssssssss!"

"What even? Shut the hell up Allan. You need it. GOOOOOO!"

"NO!"

"You are not gonna get my car then. Remember those were the rules?!" She was a bad bitch when it came to forcing.

"I am going. Let me get dressed now itself. Byeeeeeeee manipulative sister."

"LOL byeeeeeeeeee"

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So y'all are finally introduced to Jessica Colebrooks and Ashley Bennett.

Ps. Do you like Ashley?
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