Still Holding On

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It wasn't really..... well, friendly, the way Ashley was looking at Allan today morning at breakfast. But what can she do? After all high-school games could only have the tiniest impact. But he was nervous. He was scared and anxious and terrified all at once.

We were supposed to go skiing. But well my boyfriend ditched last minute. I am really really mad at him for that. We had a massive argument about it before I left. He wasn't exactly aggressive but yeah he sure was reluctant to listen. I wouldn't listen either so it wasn't completely his fault. 

"But I just don't wanna go!" I remember him saying.

"But I do. Isn't that why we're here?" I argued.

"THEN GO! I AM NOT ASKING YOU TO STAY BACK JACE!" His voice was somehow more stronger all of a sudden.

"Fine." I stormed out the door.

So now I have to ski alone. Sometimes I feel like killing that guy. Yeah but then I realize he is my boyfriend.

"You ready?" Cole asked Nishi.

"Duh!" Nishi Answered "You?" And Cole nodded.

They both looked at me and I gave an agreeable nod too. I just wanted to go back to the resort and hug Allan. And all of a sudden we were going down the hill in a really fast pace, sliding over snow.

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"See you tonight." Nishi said. "And don't give Allan a hard time." She did the I-am-watching-you gesture with her fingers and we both giggled. I just a little more nervously.

"Heyyy! You're back!" Allan jumped outa bed and ran towards me. He hugged me super tight as I kept my stuff on the kitchen counter. He looked hot in just boxers.

"Tell. Me. Everything." He held me by my arm. I suddenly jerked it out of his grasp and jumped aside. I didn't have the courage to look at his face but I was sure his smile was gone. "Okay! Umm.. you're still.... uhh mad." He sounded like he might just cry.

I wanted to tell him that i wasn't mad at him anymore. More at myself. For what happened in the backroom after skiing. I should've just stayed here. I shouldn't have gone at all. But i just couldn't stop. I woldn't have had an issue if I had stayed back at the resort with Allan.

"Can we... talk?" I asked knowing he won't deny.

"Yeah sure." He held my hand and took me to the bed.

"I...." I wanted to tell him. I wanted to tell him everything that happened between me and.......

But I couldn't. The words just won't come out.

"I don't think we should keep fighting. I don't wanna spoil this trip for either one of us. I just wanted you to enjoy but I guess you also would've been very uncomfortable if you would've come and so I don't thi—" He didn't let me complete. And just kissed me.

He pulled back and said "Let's not forget the fact that we have a room together. Let's take some advantage!"

He kissed me once again. Just way more faster and harder now. He didn't think twice before he sat on my lap—hands running to my neck and his chest over my face—and kept making out.

A sudden wave of guilt hit me and suddenly her face popped out in the back of my head. "You sure about this?" I asked Allan—hesitant as fuck.

He removed the sweater I was wearing in a hurry and since he was already half naked he pushed me down by my neck on the bed. He bent down as my hands grasped his waist tight.

His lips were next to my ear and both our chests touched. I could feel the warmth his body gave out. "I might go wild!" He whispered in my ear as both his hands entangled around mine which were both stretched above me. He let a wave down his chest and moved his body over my jeans and I could feel his wet lips on my neck slowly tracing the way down to my chest.

It felt so good that I was suddenly forced to think if it would be the same if he knew what happened today.

Would it though?

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