January 6, 2021
hey lol 🥰 I'm sad.
IDK MAN i feel like i'm going through a loop of what happened to me last year and FUCK MAN I CANT DO IT AGAIN. i can't afford to do it again, but like it feels like i can't do anything about it. like i genuinely feel trapped in all places in my life right now and i fucking hate it. like, getting out of bed had gotten so hard for me so i barely go to school, which means that i can never spend time with my friends, but it's the only thing that brings me ANY sort of joy, even if it's temporary. and homework is so overwhelming rn bruh like.. idk. i just cant fucking do it right now. RIGHT NOW. i just need more time but i can't. GOD FUCKING DAMN IT. i hate this. i don't know what's wrong with me.
Anyways i'll stop ranting for a sec to let y'all know that me and montana boy broke things off 😔😔 i haven't cried over a boy in 2 years until now like ?? am i broken ?? he lives like 600 miles away.. like ?? why am i so sad over someone i never even met.. idk man. just sad. i miss talking to him. he told me it's because he's going through something right now and i wanted to give him space because y'a know.. it's hard. BUT IT HURTTTSSSS bru ☹️ He's the only guy who's like- okau LISTEN TO THIS. me and him would stay up until like 4-5 in the morning just talking about random shit we would forget about by the next day, but he remembered little things like my favorite color, my favorite show, literally my favorite ROCK from my rock collection, bruh and my favorite song from my favorite band, and he even listened to it even though it's not really his taste in music, but he did it because he knew it was my favorite 😞😞
idk why i'm so sad. idk man, it's dumb. BUT LIKE AT LEAST IM CRYIJG. i've got so much built up shit that's never let out but now that there's something to cry about that feels effortless, then i guess it's good for me to get it out.
i miss him.
BUT ITS SO HARD BECAUSE I STILL HAVE BAND BOY AND FUUUCCKKK MAN i really like him but like i know that if montana boy lived closer then it wouldn't be such a hard decision and that's TERRIBKE BRUH cuz like i still like him but it's not like this y'a know.. liek i wouldn't cry if we stopped talking but at the same time i don't want to stop talking to him cuz i still like him, y'a know ?? FUCK IDK IM SO CONFUSED I JUST WANT IT ALL TO STOP.
anyways i think that's all for now.
actually no LOL basically i was at work while the whole "break up" kinda thing was going down so i WROTE DOWN SONG LYRICS THAT WERE COMING TO ME AS IT WAS HAPOENING AHDHSHHS💀💀 but like OMG NOOO IM SAD so basically a while ago i wrote a song called "break the distance" about montana boy and basically it's about being in love or something with someone who lives far away and blah blah but then :((( my next one is kinda a spin off ?? called "the distance broke us" UGHHHH😭😭 and i fucking finished the song in like 20 minutes. IM SAD. it's one of my best ones so far tho so that's good at least 😔 I MISS HIM UGH
okay that's all
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Humorfree reaction meme with every rant i post !! 😎 So I decided to make this book for whenever I gotta rant/vent/talk ab what going on cuz I always got shit to say about life and sometimes it can be VERY interesting LOL so enjoy. spoiler: montana boy b...
