09/27/21
i don't know what to do. i'm so tired
ethan asked me about the true bee thing so i told him and then he got mad (but like if the roles were reversed i would be too so that's understandable) but i was like "bruh i didn't even wanna kiss most of them i got pressured into it. plus you told me you didn't want to be together anymore so i don't know what you want me to do." and blah blah and then he goes on to say how he "only thinks about me and our relationship" and blah blah and then i told him i only want to be with him and if this is something he wants to work for in the future then i have no problem waiting for him and then HE SAID
"stop waiting for me. i'm sorry, but i can't give you a relationship. and i can't give you anything you deserve. the past year with you has been anything and everything i could have asked for. but i'm out of love to give you."
and my heart is torn. i just don't know how to feel, i'm angry and sad and feeling so much i just don't know. i'm just fucking pissed and wanna cry.
if he felt this way all along then why the FUCK did he keep coming back to me and why the FUCK does he "always think of me" and why the fuck did he tell me he wanted to be with me a week ago if he's "out of love to give me." i don't understand and i'm frustrated and upset.
okay fast forward a little lol.
we kinda talked about it and decided to just start over where we are right now and not worry about the past or the future, just how things are right now. not even about the relationship because it's too much and we both know that's something we can't make work right now. i think this will be good for us, at least for now. we can see what happens in the future
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