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i went to montana 🙂

may 18, 2021

Basically a lot has happened since the last time i wrote anything lmao. I just got home from montana :') im so sad.

basically i didn't mention this but i went to see montana boy from the 13th-18th and ALUjglhfhkfykd i love it there bruh, i wish i could live there and be with him all the time :(

anyways, so basically it was really hard to convince my mom to let me go just cuz she "didn't want me driving by myself for so long" so montana offered to meet me halfway and it worked :) so on the 13th i met them halfway in rexburg at dairy queen but i stopped at walmart first cuz it takes them a little bit longer to get there then me and BRO i walked around for like 20 minutes just trying to find drinks and the bathroom (and i never found the bathroom) but LMAO BRUH so i had to shit before i left but i couldn't and i was afraid to do it at his house so that's why i was trying to find a bathroom in walmart BUT I LITERALLY WENT THE WHOLE TRIP WITHOUT IT ?! it's been over a week that's so bad idk what to do 😃 I STILL CANT SHIT AND IVE BEEN HOME FOR A DAY (it's the 19th now) oh well.

anyways..  they got to dairy queen first since i was at walmart, so i drove to them and he met me out in the parking lot and then walked inside and i met his mom and sister again and THENNNN the drive back to montana was pretty swag, it was like 3 hours and me and Ethan (montana boy😐) listened to loud music the whole way and it was swag. then once we got to montana i got gas, and we drove back to his house and i got to see around and shit 😃 very swag. anyways, i was supposed to sleep in his sisters room but 😳 couldn't help it lol. i feel bad cuz i left all of my stuff in her room the whole time but i didn't even sleep in there once lmao.

ANYWAYS so basically once i met his brother (jono) and brothers girlfriend (kat) we went into his room and cuddled 🙂 uhhhh and then we banged LMAO and then jono asked if we wanted to get taco bell so we went with them in a separate car and got food and shit, then we went to a park around 2 a.m and didn't stay very long cuz it was scaryyyy so then we went back to the house and me, ethan, kat, and his sister (natalie) all hung out in her room until like 5 in the morning cuz me and ethan didn't wanna leave each other lmao and i felt bad cuz natalie was so tired bruh, but then we found a loophole i guess since it technically wasn't night and we'd just be "napping" together LMAO so then we went to his room and banged again 🙂 then slept 😴 then woke up early in the morning 🌞 banged again 😌 then slept until like 4:30 p.m cuz that's what we do bruh. NOT GOOD but it's okay lmao. but thennnn we took a shower (together😃) and tried to bang but the height difference made it very difficult 🥲 lmao, then we got ready and went to the mall and got cheese bread and smoothie, then went to subway to get his paycheck, and then we went up on this hill and watched the sun set :) WE SHOULD HAVE TAKEN PICTURES SMH. oh well, anyways we went home and went to the room to watch demon slayer and banged then slept then woke up and banged again then slept again until like 4 p.m again LOL WHY ARE WE LIKE THIS

anyways then on saturday we drove all the way to Butte to steal a gaylord street sign 😭😭😭 very funny bruh and then we got ice cream 😼 and then went home and hung out with jono and played the oculus until like 2 or 3 a.m and then went to bed and banged again LOL we fucked so many times bruh i'm scared 😃 anyways then on sunday we met his uncle benno and got food at a pizza place and i only ate like half of a slice cuz it was big LOL thennn i also met natalie's friend named Lex and idk how to feel about her cuz she flirted with Ethan in front of me bruh 😐 like low key but still DONT BE DOIN THAT SHIT. anyways then we also went up to a reservoir and had a fire and ate some foooood and ethan fucking punched a watermelon and hurt his thumb 😐 bruh. also me and natalie went down to the bottom of the reservoir and threw rocks into the water LOL and thennnnn after that we took ethan to the hospital and me and natalie had to wait for like an hour and a half but it was swag, we talked about life and just vibed IT WAS VERY NICE BRUH we're like besties now 😎 anyways ethan was fine and didn't break anything 😐

anyways then on monday ethan had his drivers test and he passed !! so i was there when he got his license which is very swag. also while he was doing the test, me and his dad just sat in the dmv and talked which was really nice too !! i love his family bruh. anyways, then we got boba and food at pita pit which was swag and thennn we went bowling with natalie, jono, kat, and lex and i did not good 😃 but it was fun. Ethan sat in my lap LMAO very swag. then after that we went to the hot springs but we were only there for like an hour cuz it closed at 11 but it was funnn and thennnn after that we went to winco and bought $40 worth of snacks bruh 🙂 THATS A LOT. and then we all went home and just vibed in the living room for a couple hours and then finally went to bed and when me and ethan laid down he played our shared playlist and a song came on and i started CRYING BRUH it was so sad, but he didn't know until like 10 minutes later and he was so sweet to me bruh i felt so bad for crying ALREADY but i was so sad cuz i had to leave the next day 😐 i cried on him for like 30-40 minutes and he just held me I LOVE HIM BRUH i wish i never had to leave.

but anyways, we woke up the next day around 2:30 and banged LMAO and then i got ready while he showered and then packed my stuff and then him and his mom drove me halfway to rexburg and we got food at cafe rio and then we said goodbye and i didn't cry :) until he left LMAO like as soon as he left i BAWLED BRUH i hate saying goodbye.

but anyways that's pretty much all that happened :) it wasn't as eventful as when he came here but i think it was better because i got to spend ALL my time with him and got to like share a bed lol and get closer with his family and just hang out without having to do expensive or like crazy things. idk man, it just made us closer than we already were and i HATE that i have to leave him. I love it there, i feel so comfortable with everyone and i wish i could just stay forever. Every single person in their family reminds me of someone in my life that i've met before and it's so comforting to me. Like his dad reminds me of like multiple people like my uncle and one of my favorite coworkers, and his brother reminds me of my old best friend named cody, and Kat (jono's girlfriend) reminds me so much of my old friend but only the good parts about her lol. I feel really comfy with her even tho i barely know her, i can't explain it. Everyone else in the family has some sort of familiarity but i can't tell exactly who the remind me of, they're just really comforting to be around. i wish i could stay forever bruh, it feels like home :(

but yeah anyways i had a good trip, i'm also scared i might be pregnant lol so that's scary. i HOPE NOT OMG. we used protection every time but i was ovulating which means i was fertile for the first like 2-3 days, and also i read that you can get pregnant from the cum getting on the vulva, not just the inside 😃 SO IM SCARED because sometimes after he came he'd do another stroke or two which pushed it out of the bottom and it got on the outside of my vagina so LIKE ONG IM SO SCARED but let's pray that i'm not cuz i'm not ready and i know he isn't either lol.

sorry for over sharing, but no one reads this anyways. ALRIGHT THATS ALL