March 20, 2022
I'm so excited bruh. I'm going to montana in 3 days and i get to stay for a couple weeks !!! :) I'm SO EXCITED but also time has gone by SOOO fucking slow since then.
Especially since I got fired 🙃 that's also the reason I get to go for so long lol.
April 22, 2022
Damn 😃 I never finished this and thought I should update that on March 23rd (day I was supposed to leave) my grandma died 😕 so Ethan came down here for a week until after the funeral and then we both went up to his house and I stayed for a little less than 3 weeks and it was okay but we didn't do anything bruh. And it's not like I had a car and could just leave his house to do whatever I wanted, I was literally trapped and all he did most of the time was watch tik tok or play video games and it was so annoying.
June 12, 2022
I never finished again lol, damn it's been a while. Basically the trip was okay, but it made Ethan realize wasn't ready to move in together because he wasn't ready to give up sleepovers with his friend 😐 and I'm sure there's other reasons but he hasn't really been open with me about it so idk.
Anyways, our relationship has been pretty rocky on and off and it's getting insanely draining that this point. We've literally had the same argument SO MANY TIMES and I say the same shit every single time about the way he makes me feel when he does certain things (I'll go into detail later) and he always says that he'll change and he just hasn't. He tries for like a week and then goes back to doing the same thing, and I'm just so tired I don't even know what to do at this point.
I'll explain the most recent argument that happened yesterday, which also lasted 7 hours straight 😐 anyways, the thing that sparked the argument is that he sent me a tik tok when I had been left on delivered for 8 hours and I responded to it and he responded back, so I told him I was still left on delivered. WELL 3 hours later I still hadn't gotten a response, and he sends ANOTHER tik tok and I'm like ??? The fuck? so I respond and ask why he hasn't texted me if he's been awake the whole time, and he never responded, so I waited another hour and still nothing, so I decide to text him on Snapchat and ask if he was okay and the mf responds 10 minutes later saying "I fell asleep and just woke up" and I was like 😐 you literally didn't. I said something about the fact he'd been on tik tok the whole 4 hours and he responded telling me he lied and that he just didn't text me, like literally no reason. He just didn't. And obviously I'm gonna be very upset about that, especially because he works the night shift now, which means we already barely get to text at all, so the fact that he had at LEAST 4 hours to text me and he just chose not to, that really hurt me.
And in hindsight I know it's just texting, but it's also not. It's about the fact that it's the only way we can spend time together with the circumstances and he just doesn't care because he doesn't NEED to text me. And the fact that he doesn't need that also hurts me, because I want to feel wanted. Every person does, especially in a really important relationship. I just don't think he realizes how much this genuinely hurts me. He KNOWS it hurts me, but he doesn't really care. He only ever thinks about what's convenient for him, so talking to him about these things is literally impossible.
July 26, 2022
Wow this has been an insane link of me just forgetting to finish talking about things lmao. I'm finally ready to finish. Just for an update, Me and Ethan were able to work through the at issue and were okay, then I got a new job but after 3 days couldn't do it anymore and it was literally just because it was a morning job and waking up early is very difficult for me 😃 so at that point I was like wtf do I do and Ethan was just like "well you should just move here" and so now I've lived here since July 1st 😎
I LIVE WITH HIM !!! we finally made it bruh. :)
So far it's been pretty uneventful cuz I've been waiting almost a month for Walmart to get back to me about a job and they've finally done it, so within the next few days I'll FINALLY be able to start working. I've literally had $3.15
August 13, 2022
Okay I'm sick of updating cuz I never finish 😭 literally all you need to know is that I'm working at Walmart now WOO okay I'll update more ina. Different one cuz IM SICK OF THIS
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RANT BOOK
Humorfree reaction meme with every rant i post !! 😎 So I decided to make this book for whenever I gotta rant/vent/talk ab what going on cuz I always got shit to say about life and sometimes it can be VERY interesting LOL so enjoy. spoiler: montana boy b...
