RANT BOOK

i kissed 9 people lol

09/24/21

y'all 😀 i got something to tell other than about ethan lol

SO UH

today was our homecoming football game and our school has this stupid tradition called "true bee" and it's where we all kiss on the football field when the light go off and YEAH so i wasn't gonna do it since me and ethan were getting back together but then he said he wasn't ready yet and so i decided to do it and UHHHH so basically at first i kissed a sophomore 😭 cuz i was pressured into it so bad lol, but it was just a peck. and then i kissed like 2 more guys that i know and i didn't want to but i felt bad saying no but UGH oh well those were also just pecks. then i pecked my old friend just for fun i guess and thennnn AHHHH i found my new friend blake and we decided to do it but we didn't want people around or watching cuz people make big deals outta it HAHA so we kinda went off to the side and we were both kinda freakin out lmao like "are you ready" and shit and then it just HAPPENED and bro.. i am NOT disappointed at ALL AHAHA. it was actually REALLY good and like AHHHH like the way he pulled me in and like his lips were so SOFT AND IT LASTED FOR LIKE A WHOLE 10 SECONDS which i mean isn't long in general but for true bee that's a while LMAO cuz like usually it's like 2-5 seconds but yeah UGH AND JOW I HAVE LIKE A TINY CRUSH ON HIM AND IDK WHAT TO DO CUZ OF THE ETHAN THING AND I ALSO DONT KNOW HOW HE FEELS BUT IDK BRUH IDK I WANNA DO IT AGAIN. and he's just like really comforting to be around 😔 i can't explain it.

but anyways after that i kissed this guy named tyler and he's like way cute and i was nervous and put it off for a long time but it was actually pretty good 😌 it was only gonna be a peck but after i kissed him i was like "damn that's pretty good" so i did it a lil longer AHHAHA but yeah. then i kissed my friend kyzon and his friend that idk his name sooooo yeah AHAHHA. pretty swag i guess 🤨

but ANYWAYS when i was done kinda i was just talking to blake and EEEEE he's swag bruh. i gotta CRUSH on him. i kept like rubbing his arm HAHA IDK WHYYY BRUH WTF but he thought it was funny andddd he put his hands on my face cuz his hands were warm YK THAT THING and yeah IDK BRUH IDK, i feel like there's kinda something there but idk bruh. I DINT KNOWWWWW i just wanna hang with him more but idk how to approach that yk? IDK BRUH. he also gave me a hug goodbye and OMG HIS HUGS ARE SO GOOD BRUH and he's so warm and bruh 😔 he's just swag i wanna be around him a lot. anyways so that's what i've got goin on 😀 maybe that will go into something or maybe it won't, idk we'll see ?? anyways tomorrow is homecoming so if anything happens then i'll update LOL OKAU THATS ALL