09/02/21
i don't know what to do. i literally feel stuck, like i don't know where to go from here.
Ethan texted me again. it's only been a few days into our break but yk. i hate everything, i wish i didn't have to think.
it's so frustrating because i need closure and i can't get it from him. i'm so confused and there's so much that i don't understand and it's frustrating and it makes things so difficult. i don't know how to move on from him. he's all i could ever want, i don't understand why this happened.
like i understand people lose feelings, but he told me that he's sorry for giving up and that he's been thinking so much about how he'll never hear my voice again or be with me again and it leaves me so confused. i don't understand what he wants.
he also said that he feels like he's never gonna find someone who will love him like i did- which he's right. no ones gonna love him like i did. i put everything i had into that relationship, i loved him with everything in me.
but i don't understand, because he also tells me we should both try to move on thinking we won't ever get back together again. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT. he's so confusing and it's frustrating. i wish he would just TELL ME HOW IT IS SO I COULD MOVE ON. i just hate that he would throw away something that could be so fucking good. like obviously it was the right choice for us to break up RIGHT NOW, but that doesn't mean we can't have an amazing future together. i wish he could see that.
idk. idk what to do or what to feel. i don't know how to help myself or how to heal. i don't know where to start, i'm overwhelmed and i wish it would all just stop for a minute. i need a break. i hate everything.
idk. we'll see what happens.
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