RANT BOOK

no more band boy :/

February 2, 2021

Well shit:/ so basically yesterday I went to band practice (cuz I'm in the band now YUUUHHH) AND band boy came and like I hadn't seen him in a month so obviouslyI've been having these doubts that he had no idea about but he acted like normal and it was kinda weird for me like we kissed and stuff but then when I got home he t3xt3d me and was like "do you still like me?" and then that's where the whole convo started AHHG so basically I told him yes but things are kinda complicated and then he asked what I meant and I told him about how it's probably just bad timing cuz we've both got priorities we need to be focusing on right now and adding a relationship on top of all of that right now will just make things harder

and UGGHHH this mf really did the most trying to hold on like bruh I just wish he would understand where I'm coming from and that this is just not a good time for us. idk man, but we ended it. maybe one day we can try again but man j just can't do it right now.

oh shit and he also told me to wait cuz in a month he's getting a new job that will free up some of his time and I'm like ?? I don't want to wait bruh I've already wait3d for 3 months and nothing has happened. it's not fair to me to bend backwards for him just because his scheduleis busy ya know? like I told him we can take a br3ak until then.

it's not like he'll really be missing anything tho cuz he only texted me once every 18 hours 😐

idk man it's complicated.

also my mom took BOTH of my phones so now I'm using an android to type this so if there's random 3's in my words then ignore it lmao.

my mom has been pissing me off lately rho. like she acts like we've never talked about ANYTHING that's going on with me and she makes it seem like I'm perfectly fine and I'm just being "lazy" and she literally took my phone because I wasn't ready for school by the time she was leaving for work. like bruh just cuz I'm not ready for school by 8:30 doesn't mean I'm skipping the entire fucking day, there is literally no reason for her to be taking in before I even get the chance to go to the rest of school.

idk shits just fucking annoying.

oh yeah I also started writing ANOTHER song about Montana boy LMAO what is my problem bruh. idk man.

the other day he told me that if we had stsrt3d dating when we first added each other we would have been dating for 4 months :( why man.

and he always says shit about how he want a to kiss me and like runaway with me and he literally said he could see himself living with me UGGGHHHH PAIN BRUH.

it's always "one day" until "one day" he decides he doesn't want this anymore :/ and like I KNOW it's gonna be so easy for him to leave because obviously rher3s no way I can stop him, we've never even met. but man it makes me sad I just want him forever

he's literally everything I could ever want. EVERYTHING. and I hate that I can't have him :/

oh well thanks for listening LMAO