Why So Lonely? || Minsung 1/3 ✔️

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It was only a few days after Heetuk had moved in; Friday night. I was getting myself some water so I could head back up to my room, but the conversation I was hearing stopped me. I turned around, peeking into the other room.

Frustration seizes the tips of my fingers, watching as Heetuk defended himself again over making a dumb decision that cost him. Never taking responsibility. My dad just listened, rolling his eyes, but not saying anything.

My water was forgotten. I clench my jaw, sharply turning around and stomping to the front door. Opening it, I slam it shut, leaving the walls around it to shake.

I rub my face harshly as I continue to walk down the sidewalk, anger flooding my senses. I could practically see the smoke in my peripherals.

My face was almost sore from how hard I was frowning. I tried taking deep breaths, but it frustrated me more. I step onto the park soil, sitting on a swing.

I grabbed out my phone, remembering that Minho was supposed to come over later.

- - - - -

Hubby 🥰

we can't
hang out today,
sorry.

it's alright
are you okay?

yeah
i'll talk
to you later

you're a bad liar :/
just remember
that i love you
and i'm always here
if you need to talk.

he never takes
fucking responsibility
minho.
never.
he blames everyone
for everything
and it pisses me
the fuck off.
i don't know
what to fucking do
anymore.
i had to leave the
house so i wouldn't
go off on him.
and you know what?
it fucking hurts.
it hurts that i feel such bad
emotions toward him.
i can't forgive. i cant.
i'll always resent him
and it really
fucking hurts min.

- - - - -

Incoming Call: Hubby 🥰
Answer | Decline

"Where are you?"

My lip wobbles as I cry softly in the phone, "I don't want you to see me like this."

"I just want to make sure you're safe, lovely. If you want me to come get you, I will. If you don't, then that's fine."

"The park."

"Okay."

"It hurts so much." I stare out into the distance as my legs gently push my body on the swing.

"I know, Ji. I'm sorry."

"Min?"

"Yes?"

I sigh, swallowing harshly. "I-I'll talk to you later, okay? See you."

"Wait-"

I hang up, tucking my phone into my sweatshirt pocket. I can't take this shit anymore. I'm so tired.

I stand from the swing, going over to the jungle gym. I climb up the small steps, finding a hidden corner to sit at. I wasn't going home anytime soon.

-

"Jisung, wake up." Someone shook me by my shoulder. I slowly opened my eyes, seeing Felix in front of me.

"Felix? What are you doing here?"

There wasn't a smile on his face. I hated it.

"Changbin and I came out to look for you. It's been hours, Sungie. Your parents were worried you ran away, but when your mom called Minho, he said you were probably still here. He had to work, so she called Bin."

They thought I ran away? Oh, god, I'm in so much trouble. The thought never even crossed my mind. I just needed to get out.

"I'm not going home."

That's a stupid thing to say, especially if they're accusing me of leaving, but I can't take it.

Felix's eyes soften. He scoots over to sit right next to me. "Fine. Then I'll stay with you until you're ready. I'll tell Bin to go home."

"Lix, no. It's too dangerous out here. And I don't want to steal you away from him. You guys were obviously hanging out. Go."

"No."

Stubborn ass.

He lays his head on my shoulder, his arm draped across my torso. Such a koala.

"Why?"

"Because I'm here for you. If you don't want your friends to help lift you up, I'll stay with you while you're down until you're ready to be helped."