Why So Lonely? || Minsung 1/3 ✔️

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My eyes snap open, full of anxiety until I realize it wasn't real. They soften up, almost having me fall asleep again. I wanted to, but I didn't want to. I'm scared, but I'm tired.

A knock on my door sends me into a flying panic, leaving my thoughts to soak into my pillow. I jump out of the bed, ripping the blanket off of Minho and laying it messily on the floor. I throw my pillow down before I walk to the door.

Opening it, Heetuk is right behind my mom. Thank god I took precautions. Poor Minho, though. He's probably freezing.

"Yeah?" Jeez, my voice needs to get caught up. I'm awake, bro. Quit sounding like a broken keyboard.

"Breakfast is ready."

"Okay, I'm not too hungry and Minho is still sleeping. We'll come down later."

"Alright, honey. Good morning, by the way." She kisses my cheek, leaving me to myself. Heetuk hesitates to follow behind her, but he doesn't say a word to me. Good.

"What was that all about?" Minho groans, rubbing his eyes. "And where is the blanket?"

I lock my door before I answer. "Sorry, they scared me." I pick up the comforter, laying it neatly on top of him. I kiss his forehead, too, before backing off and grabbing my pillow.

"Are you ever going to tell him?"

"No. Don't ask about it again."

I felt bad when I said it like that. I know it's hard for us, and it shouldn't even be a big deal, but it is to me. For some odd reason.

"Sorry."

I sit on my bed, looking out of my window. It was a nice day outside. Good weather.

"It's not your fault. I'm sorry. Can I tell you something?"

"Of course." He sits up, resting his hand on my lower back.

I close my eyes, breathing out. Can't believe I'm going to admit this. I never thought it'd be brought up again.

"After Heetuk had left, I found out that an old friend of mine had helped him sneak out multiple times behind my back. We used to be close, but clearly, not anymore. They seemed closer to him than I was, anyway. That's why I don't like him knowing my friends or significant others. He just steals them away and victimizes himself. Even uses them for his personal gain. This isn't even the first person. They'd said nothing about it until we were talking and he mentioned helping Heetuk sneak out one night. Our friendship didn't break because of that, but it definitely bothered me a lot. When Heetuk had originally left, I blamed him a lot for it. We've made amends, but I can't stand him or even the thought. But yeah, that's why."

"Shit... that's really rough. I'm so sorry. You don't deserve that, angel. Fuck, he was already breaking your trust before he even left. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I really am. I'll do anything to help you."

"I appreciate that, but it's okay. I'm sorry you have to go through so much with me. I know you'll say it's okay and that you want to help, but it's still a lot for you, and I realize that."

"Thank you, but as you said, it's okay. Shit happens. I'll always be there for my loved ones. Always."

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you beforehand, but there's so much you don't know and I'm trying my best to keep it from you. That sounds bad, but it's too much for another person to know. It'll hurt you like it has me. I don't want to hurt you. I don't want you to know how hurt I really am. I just want it to go away."