Why So Lonely? || Minsung 1/3 ✔️

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I wake up at four in the morning. Of course. I sigh out, hugging a pillow to my chest.

I miss Minho. I feel like it's been awhile since I missed him this much. I just want to be held and kissed. I wanna smell his scent in my sheets. I'd love to hear his voice, raspy and tired in the morning, but filled with love.

I pick up my phone, going to our messages. I didn't have the energy to type, so instead, I made a voice message.

"Good morning. I love you. Have a nice day sweetie." Ew, my voice sounded like a fucking demon, but whatever. I send the message, putting my phone back down.

I love him a lot. He's such a good person. I'm not even saying that because he's my boyfriend. He's truly thoughtful and loving. I'd never met anyone like him. I mean, Chan is close to it, but fuck, Minho is so different.

- - - - -

Hubby 🥰

voice message 0:07
seen 4:37am

hi baby
good morning
you sound so
fucking breathtaking.
i love you so much.
is everything
okay?

uhh yeah, kind of
why are you awake?

couldn't sleep
what about you?
nightmare?

no, i just woke
up randomly.
are you okay?

yeah, i think.
just worried
about you.

min i told you i
was okay

i know
i'm just always
worried about you
i can't really
help it

i get it.
hey, i love you
a lot. i mean it,
okay?

i love you a
lot too angel.
do you think
shit i didn't mean
to send that.
never mind

no, what's up?

can we call?
i just really need
to hear your voice
right now.

sure, let me get
my earbuds

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Incoming call: Hubby 🥰
Answer | Decline

"Hey," I whisper into my earbud speaker.

I hear him sniffle. "Hey."

I frown, my heart clenching. "Are you crying, Min?"

He chokes out a laugh only to whimper. "Yeah. Just a little."

"What's going on, baby? Huh?"

"I-I don't really know. There's just... there's a feeling in my stomach. And I miss you. And I'm just so scared for you. I don't know what to do. I want to be there for you. I want to make you feel not alone, Jisung. I really, really don't want you to feel alone anymore," he cries out, a small sob escaping him.

"Oh, lovely," I soothe, "it's okay. I'm okay, I promise. You make me feel protected all the time, I promise you. And you are there for me always, even when I don't tell you things. You're the best boyfriend ever. Why are you scared for me, baby? Can you tell me?"

"I don't know. I just... all the bad things that have happened to you, Jisungie. All of it. A-and what you said to Jeongin. Last month when you told us about Heetuk. How you wouldn't be here if it wasn't for us. I know you meant it a different way. I know you lied to protect us. I'm so scared that you still have those thoughts."

My heart tears in two. "Sunshine, I promise you I'm not going anywhere, okay? I promise. Back then, I wasn't in my right mind. But you guys came into my life. I'm happy, I swear to you. I don't have those thoughts anymore. I'm staying here with you, you got that?"

"Okay. Okay. I believe you. Thank you. I'm sorry. I just get so nervous. You say things that stick with me, a lot. I-I'm not saying don't tell me, but I want to make sure you never feel that way again. I want you to get better."

"You're already helping me, Min. I'm getting better. Maybe not quickly, but I am."

"That makes me happy. As long as you're happy, I'm happy."

"You should get some sleep, okay? School is going to be a bitch."

"Yeah, we should. You're going straight to bed, right?"

"Yeah, I'll try."

"Okay. Goodnight, Jisungie."

"Goodnight, sunshine."

"I love you."

"I love you, too."