Why So Lonely? || Minsung 1/3 ✔️

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Changbin waves to me as he drives off toward his own house. The feeling hadn't shaken off. I was worried and anxious.

When I walk inside, I realize that my dads car was parked in the driveway. Maybe he got the week off. I try to brush it off and head upstairs. He surely wasn't home if the lights were off.

I sit on my bed, my eyebrows furrowed together. Something was wrong, and I needed to figure out what it was. It was going to drive me crazy all night.

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Texting Sunshine ☀️💕

Jisung
has anything been
weird to you today?

Sunshine ☀️💕
no
why?
are you okay?

Jisung
i think??
something feels
wrong today.
i'm like- scared.
it's weird.
nvm ignore me

Sunshine ☀️💕
you were acting
a bit strange today.
but what do you mean
by wrong?

Jisung
it feels like soemrning
bad is going to happen
something**

Sunshine ☀️💕
well everything
is fine over here

Jisung
that's good to know.

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Texting CB97 Loser

Jisung
is anything weird
for you today?

CB97 Loser
not really
why?

Jisung
idk
nvm

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Texting Hyunnie 👑

Jisung
is everything okay?

Hyunnie 👑
yeah why?

Jisung
soemrning is wrong
fuck
why do i keep spelling
that wrong.
something feels wrong
today.

Hyunnie 👑
besides you screwing
up your spelling,
everything seems fine.

Jisung
okay.

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Texting Big Brain

Jisung
seungminnn

Big Brain
whaaaattt

Jisung
does anything feel
weird today?

Big Brain
a bit, why?

Jisung
wait really?
i thought i was
the only one.
it feels like soemrning
bad it going to happen

Big Brain
yeah idk
i can feel it yeah
something is off
i try to ignore
those things

Jisung
okay well if
anything happens,
tell me

Big Brain
okayyy

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Thank god I wasn't the only person who felt it. I sigh, but that doesn't anything feel better. I groan out loud, screaming into my pillow.

"Wait!" I yell, "maybe it's because there's nothing to do! Usually something happens, either good or bad, but nothing is happening right now. And the last thing that happened was bad, so the next thing will be good! I'm a genius. Indeed, you are, Jisung."

I sigh, "but what's up with the bad feeling? Maybe I was overthinking it. Agh, Jisung, you stress me out."

I sit in my bed before deciding to go make dinner. Dinner today was going to be a simple beef bowl.

While cooking, I felt my phone vibrate. It was an unknown caller, but from the same area.

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"Hello?" I answer, expecting someone to have the wrong number or something.

"Is this Jisung?" It sounded like a familiar voice, but I couldn't place my finger on it.

"It is. Who is this?"

"It's Heetuk."

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I stand there a minute. There it was. The bad feeling. I knew it. I try to say something, but I just end the call instead. I turn off the stove, feeling as if I would end up burning the meat.

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Calling Pigunny 🐷

"Hey-"

"I was right. I knew it. I fucking knew it, Bin.
I wasn't wrong," I breathe out quickly.

"What happened? Do you need me to pick you up?"

"No, but he called me."

"He what?"

"He called me."

"What did he say?"

"I don't know. I hung up."

"Jisung-"

"Changbin, why did he call me? I didn't want to talk to him. I don't know what to do. First it was him, a-and then it was my parents. What's n-next? Wh-why- why can't he leave me a-alone?" My breathing staggers, leaving me to try and gasp through the panic. My lungs burned, the pain making me drop my phone.

All I can hear from the phone is, "I'm coming with Chan."

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I sit against the kitchen island, grasping my head in my hands. I hear a knock on the door. I didn't want to answer. I shouldn't be so dependent on them. I know this.

Then I hear the door open. They have the key for emergencies. Idiot.

"Jisung?" I hear Chan call out.

I should've turned the kitchen light off.

"J, look at me," I hear Changbin say. His hand grasps my arm, trying to get me to look at them.

Tears blur my vision, "I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have called. I shouldn't be so dependent on you guys. It's not right," I sob out, "I shouldn't be so sensitive."

"No, don't say that," Chan says, kneeling next to me, "we're always going to be here for you. No matter the time, okay? You can't help that you're sensitive. We're here to help you, Ji. You're not alone. We're here for you."

I shake my head, "I'm always alone."

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•Early update because why the hell not•