Why So Lonely? || Minsung 1/3 ✔️

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The week goes by, loneliness filling me up slowly as the time goes on. Minho is there though, making it feel like the first time in forever that I had company. Just someone really with me.

Changbin, Chan, and I weren't able to have a 3Racha session since Chan unexpectedly had to work. Without one of us, it's pointless in going.

I had a total of three nightmares during the nights, scaring me further into not sleeping. I didn't want to end up like Chan. He couldn't control his schedule, and I felt really bad for him. He needs to see a doctor.

All week, I felt like something was weird. Maybe it was because Minho's friends and my friends were mutuals without me realizing it. A group of eight boys. How chaotic it was at lunch. It was fun, though. Got my mind off of stuff.

Minho and I grew closer while our friends teased us. We didn't deny anything besides dating. We said we were taking it slow, and that's how we planned to continue.

I've known the older for months. We met in our math class. He helped me. I helped him. It was like an IOU thing before it developed into a small friendship. I don't know why I didn't consider it a friendship until now.

We never really talked outside of class. Sure, we'd send smiles in the halls, but nothing else. I regretted it. Maybe we could've already moved closer if we had talked more.

"Jisung, honey, can you stop staring at the wall? You're freaking me out," my mom laughs, walking into where I was sitting from the kitchen. "Is there something wrong?"

I shake my head and put on a smile. A really, really forced one. "Nothing's wrong, just thinking to myself. I'm going to go to my room though. I want to finish that book." She nods while laying on the couch and turning on the tv.

I didn't feel like reading today. I felt like... resting. I felt like closing my eyes and drifting off. I was so unbelievably tired, but I didn't want to. I didn't need to. Fuck sleep.

I pull out my phone, clicking on a drama called 'My ID is Gangnam Beauty.' A friend had shared a trailer of it on Facebook and I couldn't help but want to watch it.

I lay my head down, holding my phone to the side while watching the scenes that unfolded. Before I knew it, I fell asleep just ten minutes in.

-

"Jisung?" My mom calls quietly.

My senses come in slowly, not processing that I had fallen asleep. I groan in response, asking what?

"Dinner's ready if you're hungry."

My eyes open, "okay, I'll be down later." I wasn't hungry today. Though, I only had lunch at school. Friday man, what the hell.

She leaves and I sit up, pulling my arms over my head to stretch. It was cold in my room. I fell asleep over my blankets, so my body was shivering.

"Fuck, I fell asleep," I whisper in realization, scolding myself for being tired.

I check my phone, seeing that the episode had ended, making me wonder where I left off. Only a few notifications, one from Jeongin.

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Texting Metal Mouth

Metal Mouth
hyunggg i'm bored
6:24pm

Jisung
what am i supposed
to do about it

Metal Mouth
i dunnooo
r u busy

Jisung
no
why

Metal Mouth
do u wanna come over
i can invite felix too

Jisung
sure, i'll ask my mom

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Texting Ma 🌺

Jisung
can i go over to
jeongin's?

Ma 🌺
Yes. Do you
need me to take you?

Jisung
no, i can walk.
he doesn't live far

Ma 🌺
Are you going to eat dinner?

Jisung
no, i'm not hungry

Ma 🌺
Ok

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Texting Metal Mouth

Jisung
i can comeee

Metal Mouth
yayyy
i'll message felix hyung
rn

Jisung
sounds good.
i'll be there
in a few