Why So Lonely? || Minsung 1/3 ✔️

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"It was a night that both my parents were out. It was almost my birthday. I was almost asleep and my brother had stayed in his room. I guess he didn't realize that I was laying on the couch, but he walked past me with multiple bags. I asked him where he was going, and he said he was leaving with his girlfriend. He told me that he couldn't take it anymore, that he wasn't happy. I-I begged him not to leave. I screamed at him, but he just looked away and left. That was the hardest thing I had to explain to my parents.

"For the first few months, it was hard. I'd have episodes where I saw him in school since he still went. I screamed at him in the middle of the hallway. Chan and Changbin were the only people that knew what happened. They were always my way out when I couldn't take it at home. My parents arguments got worse over time. Everything was just awful. In school, random people who were friends with my brother would ask where he was. I couldn't even answer. I just walked away. He dropped out not even a few weeks later when he left. A-and to make it worse, sometimes he came home and lied to my parents, and then went straight back to his girlfriend. It happened multiple times... I never wanted to worry you guys about why I wasn't coming to school for the day or why I sometimes broke down in the middle of the hallway. I always had an excuse. I was stressed. I was tired. I wasn't feeling well. I didn't want to bother you guys because I know you all have your own stressors. I guess the lie played out too long and you had to find out the hard way.

"...so that's basically what's been going on for the past year or two," I finish, having told the others who hadn't known about my brother, what actually happened.

We had left the house and gone to Chan's apartment because I didn't trust that my brother would come home soon or my mom walk in on me explaining it. She would tell me that it's no ones business, but she doesn't understand that this entire thing has been weighing down on my shoulders.

"God, Jisung..." Hyunjin rubs the back of his neck, "we had no idea how much stress you've taken on for so long. I wish you would've told us sooner, but I understand why you didn't."

Minho rubs my back soothingly, "we're here for you now, all of us. If you ever need anything, we're here for you."

"Thanks guys," I smile, still weak in the heart from the day before. "I really appreciate it. I'm really sorry I didn't tell you that I at least had a brother. He just... he hurt me, and it was nice to forget him for the moment."

They all nod, not knowing what to say. I sit there, playing with Minho's hands.

"Thank you guys," I say again, "I honestly probably wouldn't have gotten through this year without you all."

Jeongin shakes his head, "what do you mean?"

I bite my tongue, lifting my head to make eye contact with him. Just by the look on my face, his lips began to form a pout before tears started to build in his eyes.

I stand quickly and bring him into a tight hug, "It's okay, Innie. I'm not going anywhere, I promise. I-I didn't mean it like that, I'm sorry. I would never, I promise."

I then feel multiple arms go around me and I realize that the group was hugging us too. I bury my head into Jeongin's shoulder, forcing myself not to cry again.

I love these guys so much.