Why So Lonely? || Minsung 1/3 ✔️

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I don't look at my phone when I shut the alarm off. I don't wonder about what messages I received during the small amount of time that I actually slept. I don't bother even picking it up until I leave.

I escape my house before my mom has time to come out of her room. There was a light breeze; it was warm. It was like the world was trying to apologize with good weather, but I wasn't having it. I wanted out.

"Morning. How are you feeling?" Changbin comes up behind me, wrapping an arm around me.

Be happy. Forget everything. Don't waste your life feeling sorry for yourself. Just... be happy, Jisung. Try to be.

I muster up a smile, the corners of my mouth shaking a bit from the sudden movement. "I'm okay, you?"

"I'm doing alright. Do you wanna grab some ice cream after school?"

I just want to sleep. "Yeah, sure."

"Okay. Hyunjin and Felix are coming with us, too, by the way. You don't have to if you don't want to."

"No, no, I'll come." I try to look at him only to quickly focus my eyes on the ground. Timid shithead.

"...okay," he hesitates. He stares at me as if he was trying to hear what I was thinking. "I'll see you later then, okay?"

I nod, watching him walk away to meet up with his boyfriend. I stop where I'm at on the sidewalk, searching for my own boyfriend. He's standing by a tree, looking... frowning at his phone?

"Hey," I come up to him, clearing my throat and shaking my head. I sounded sad. We can't have that. Positive attitude. "Morning," I repeat, smiling.

He looks up at me, tackling me in a hug. "Oh my god, Jisung, why didn't you answer my texts? You scared the shit out of me. Are you okay? What happened this morning?"

I sigh, holding onto him tightly. The material on his shirt smelled good, and it was soft. I rubbed my cheek on it, feeling like I was home. The emotion of true happiness flutters inside my chest, settling my negative thoughts. Just when I thought nothing could help, he proves me wrong again.

"Jisung is a gross name," I pout, letting my hands roam the small groves on his back. "Say the other one."

"But you-"

"Please."

He then gets the memo, kissing my neck gently. "My beautiful angel."

"Yayy," I say, extending the 'a' sound. "Let's go to class, don't wanna be late!" I grasped his hand tightly and skipped my ass to my locker and then our class.

Please, please don't go away. For today. Please. I like being happy. I like not having a sickening feeling in my stomach. I like watching my boyfriend be a dumbass and hearing our laughter mix. Let me have a good day.

Minho smiles ear to ear as I talk about an old memory of accidentally tripping over my dog. The topic randomly came up, but it made me happy. I missed my dog a lot. Minho wasn't much of a dog person, but he still listened to me, and that's what made me feel important.

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•I'm so tired :,) I just want some like idk cuddles n shit•