[1] Babysitting Lux

30 - Awkward Conversations Lead To Hugs & Interruptions

30 - Awkward Conversations Lead To Hugs & Interruptions

I hesitantly walked into the kitchen, with silent and subtle steps that would keep me in anonymity for if Niall happened to be there by any dark twisted play of fate. I was praying to God I did not find him there, though.

But it turned out the saying ‘God gives you what you need, not what you want’ proved itself to me right then and there, much to my displeasure.

I opened the door, and if this were a normal story, I would have seen him and slowly walked away, making no noise and with him not even knowing I was ever there and that I had seen him. But since this was my story, it would, of course, be anything but normal. It would be as embarrassing as possible for me.

I opened the door and Niall immediately turned around. Almost as if he had been waiting for me. Oh, how I wish it was that. But he was probably just curious because of the door’s squeak that had announced to him that someone had come in.

Our eyes met instantly and I felt myself losing into that ocean blue that his irises were made of. I suddenly felt my hands start to sweat, my breathing got agitated and my mind went blank. He just stood there, as well, awkwardly I must say, in front of me. 

Did he not know what to do or how to act either? Because I most definitely and surely didn’t. and I was not going to make the first move.

Niall’s P.O.V.

It seemed like today was my lucky day! All I had done was go down because I was hungry and started to prepare myself something to eat. Even though I had secretly wished I would find her here. I even did the sandwich the slowest way possible, just waiting for her. I repeat, today was my lucky day.  It might be because I was wearing white socks.

I had not seen her in the morning; I was with Louis since early recording our solos for Heart Attack. I loved that song for the OW’s I got to sing. I told Richard I was not recording anything else until he promised to give me that. And it worked. I have always believed it all depends on how bad you want something and if you are ready to fight for it. Just like the way it had to be with Kaylie. I was finally sure about my growing feelings for her and even though we were leaving soon I at least wanted to tell her about them.

And by the time I arrived to where Louise was with the other lads, Kaylie was long gone with Baby Lux back to their room and I had to stay up here to record. I just found Zayn there, grunting about how he wanted to spend some time with Baby Lux and that Kaylie never let him.

But it did not make sense that he was grunting and moping about it now given the fact that today we had to go to an interview which meant he was not going to spend any time with Baby Lux anyway. But I found it was better not to intervene into his upset ranting.

Louise comforted him by saying she would tell Kaylie to take the afternoon off so that he could be with her. And I was okay with that. It would actually benefit me. We were leaving in a couple of weeks and I would feel like a complete coward and a teenage dirt bag if I didn’t say anything to Kaylie about my growing feelings towards her or if I did not at least try to make a move.

Sometimes I wondered why all of this was so complicated. At the end I was just a boy and she just a girl.

Well, she was not just a girl. She was the girl I would love to call my girl. But I was not sure if I should say something, though. I mean, we were leaving soon. It would be pointless, stupid in fact. But there was something in my guts telling me that leaving without telling her was wrong. Maybe I was delaying something great from happening. But what great thing could even happen if I was indeed leaving soon? I had taken too long to confess my feelings, that’s for sure.