[1] Babysitting Lux

37 - Hell Yes It Was Kidnap, You Ass!

37 - Hell Yes It Was Kidnap, You Ass!

Kaylie’s P.O.V.

I woke up to Taylor Swift’s I Knew You Were Trouble. I sang along to my favorite part, enjoying the actuality of the moment. Everything was just pitch perfect when a Taylor song was on the background. It was as if I were in a movie, everything happened just the way it was supposed and everyone was happy.

I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now.

I continued to sing along while smiling, that song always got me in a good mood. I felt as if I were the one dating the bad boy. There was something about the peacefulness in the air when that song was on which made me feel unstoppable. I grinned widely and decided to look down to see Lux sleeping placidly, just to admire the cute view and enjoy this beautiful moment in life to its most. My smile immediately disappeared and my happily-ever-after dreams vanished when I realized she was not in the bed next to me, though.

I panicked and sat straight up as if I had just been electrocuted and looked around the room, in the floor, around the bed, freaking everywhere. I looked behind the shelves holding the movies and toys to see if she was there. I searched in the bathroom but she was not there either, and that just got me more and more anxious. I frowned confused when I saw she was nowhere in sight. Had she been abducted by aliens?

Nah, she was probably playing underneath the bed. I rolled over to the edge of the bed and looked underneath it to search for her there. I knew she might have woken up, got over the wall of pillows I always got around the bed so she would not fall and gotten to play somewhere around the room.

Just that she was not.

My heart shrank as fear took over me and I felt an intense pang in my stomach. Had I just lost a baby? Well, it was too soon as to jump into conclusions but… Why was she not in here with me?  Why was she not sleeping next to me? Why did I not realize earlier she was not here? Why did I not hear anything? Why, why, why?

Then, my subconscious tricked me into saying something I dreaded to say, something we both knew but which I really did not want to say out loud. If I did, it would make it true, and it being true did not only bring me trouble but it also brought me preoccupation. “Oh my god, did I just lose Lux?!” I shrieked in a high pitched tone, even though no one could hear me.

I looked around frantically some more, desperately trying to find her. She was nowhere inside the room. But the door was closed, it was impossible she had gone outside…

I was going to go to jail and share a cell with a woman that would force me to get a tattoo of her face on my butt or dye my hair red or blue or white or purple! Oh god! Purple would not look good on me! I would rot in jail for losing a baby.

Louise would never forgive me; she would probably send me to jail. Zayn would hate me even more. I would never forgive myself! Tom would try to murder me. Niall would hate on me and my mom would ground me forever! I was doomed. I had to find Lux.

I tried to figure out where she could go. If she left on her own or if a murderer or kidnapper took her with him… okay, that was not a calming thought.

Unless Louise took her out without telling me? Yeah, she probably did so… and she… did not want to wake me up? Oh lord please let it be that! That was the answer that calmed me the most.

Because in all seriousness, how was I going to tell her I lost her baby? I had to find her before Louise did. She could find Lux wandering around and then I would get fired. Well, actually I would get fired anyway, because I had to tell Louise I had lost Lux. Zayn was right all along, I was never fit enough to take care of Lux. I am just a girl, a baby cannot take care of another baby, I was a fool to think so.