Serena Fernandez-Forge. A young girl who was thrown in the deep end of life. At the young age of 17, Serena had lost the two things that mattered to her most in the world. Her twin sister Charlotte and her missing mother, Angelica. Her wings. Like a...
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It had been days since Bella and I's encounter with Laurent in the woods. I hadn't said a word to my mom or Carlos about seeing him. I had become paranoid since knowing Victoria was hunting Bella and I. Every sound made me jump and I could hardly sleep at night without waking up panicking that she was in the corner of my room waiting to kill me.
On some occasions I would imagine a flash of red in the trees or distance but would realise it's my imagination playing tricks on me. I felt crazy and like I belonged in an asylum for the mentally insane. It was moments like this where I really missed Edward. He was my safety. My security. He would never leave my side and I always felt so safe. Now I just feel a baby antelope being preyed on from a distance by a sadistic lioness.
I didn't know what Victoria would be capable of. I had only seen her one time but I remembered Laurents warning of not underestimating her which meant she had to be some sort of threat. Some days I would just want to get it all over and done with and just end things on my terms by throwing myself over a cliff or something but then I remember the pain my mother went through when she lost Charlotte and I couldn't bring myself to cause her more of that pain.
I sat on my floor folding laundry and placing it in my chest of drawers as I listened to an episode of Dr Phil. I sighed as I placed my shirt in my drawer when I felt something unusual. I scrunched my eyebrows before pulling it out and saw it was a CD in a paper cover with the words Serena's Lullaby scribed on it. I felt my heart quicken as I stared at the disk.
I forgot that I had hidden it after Edward left. He had given it to me along with my necklace for my birthday. I stood up and walked over to my trash about to throw it away when I hesitated. I bit my bottom lip before pulling the CD out and walking over to my stereo. I turned it on before placing the CD in and closing the lid. I pressed play and waited a few seconds before I heard it.
The beautiful, enchanting song Edward had spent hours perfecting just for me. It was my song. I walked over to my bed and grabbed my notepad from my bedside drawer. I flipped to a blank page before grabbing my pen and biting the end of it as I stared at the blank page. Maybe by writing down how I felt, it would help take away some of the long held pain I had inside me.
I sighed before bringing my pen to the paper, beginning to write.
Edward,
No words will ever be enough to describe the amount of pain your absence has brought me. Though it has been months, it still feels as though someone has punched a massive gaping hole through my chest and ripped my heart out. From the moment we first got together, I had never imagined being apart from you. I couldn't imagine life without you. To me it seemed unfathomable. I feared the thoughts of being away from you. You were the love of my life. The moon to my stars, the sun to my sky, the day to my night. You were my everything.But my worst fears came true that day in the woods when you abandoned me like I was nothing. For so long I have debated with myself on weather I hate you or not. And I have now come to the conclusion that I don't hate you as a person because I fell in love with you for a reason.
But I hate how you made me feel. You made me love you, care for you, trust you, feel hope with you. You made me shed tears you don't deserve. You made me lose sleep, stop eating, become...numb. I was the shattered mirror and you were the glue holding me together, giving me hope that finally, everything would be ok. But you left and now I'm back to where I started, a shattered, undesirable mess. For so long I've been fighting the emotions that want to come to the surface. The heartbreak, the pain, the agony. But no matter how hard I try, I will always be human which means those emotions will always come out. You made a promise that you would never leave me again but like a promise, you were unreliable and you let me down.
I placed my pen down and ripped the page out before walking downstairs. I scrunched up the piece of paper before throwing it into the fireplace watching it turn into nothing more then a pile of ash. In a way I felt better. I was able to express everything that had been pent up for so long. And in another way, I felt the hole in my chest slowly close a tiny bit.
My phone rang in my pocket and I fished it out before seeing it was Bella. "Bella? Hi" I said as I answered the phone. "Serena! Those wolves we saw in the woods the other day?! They're shapeshifters!" a frantic Bella said into the phone. "Whoah, whoah whoah. Bella slow down!" I said trying to understand what she was saying.
"You remember when I told you about how Jake didn't want to be my friend anymore? It's because he is a shape-shifter who turns into a wolf. He's apart of this pack run by a guy called Sam Uley over in La Push. They're the ones who were in the field the other day and they killed Laurent" said Bella and my eyes widened. "T-They're humans?!" I exclaimed.
"I know it sounds crazy. A couple months back, that day we all went down to La Push beach, Jake was telling me some old legends about shape-shifters and the cold ones meaning vampires and wolves. The other night he visited me and told me to remember those legends and it clicked. I went to see him today to see if it was true and I saw Sam there and tried to confront him but things went...bad to say the least. Basically, I saw Jake change before my eyes from a human to a wolf" Bella explained.
