His Blue Dog | Sope BOOK #1

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After the nurse left the room, Yoongi closed his eyes to go back to sleep.

Nurses kept coming in in the middle of the night to stick him with needles, giving him drugs to help with the pain in his chest. It started getting better once J-Hope started spending the night at the hospital with him.

Yoongi looked over at J-Hope to see him sound asleep, again, his mouth slightly open to release cute, light snores. Yoongi smiled at that.

The other members were asleep in a hotel a few miles away, but they were still close by and that made Yoongi feel better. He looked down at the old cuts on his wrist and rubbed his thumb over them, feeling the weird texture of the scabbed-over skin.

Why was he doing this again? He was back where he was six years ago, in the same dark place with the same dark thoughts. The only difference, was that he liked guys now. That's it. There were still people around him, but he felt lonely. He was surrounded by half the world, and he still felt lonely.

So Yoongi gently grabbed his phone and took a lazy selfie, his eyes closed and getting J-Hope in the picture, making it obvious he was still in a hospital.

He captioned: 안녕히 주무세요... [good night], and posted it on Weverse. ARMY instantly started praising him and wishing him a good night's sleep, hoping he was doing well.

He set his phone down and tried to sleep. The feeling of J-Hope's arms around him was already making him drowsy, he was already half way asleep. And the cute sounds J-Hope was making was adorable to Yoongi, it was cuter than Jungkook begging Jin for literally anything.

It was different to admit a guy was cute when he was sleeping, Yoongi felt like a stalker. But it was J-Hope, it was okay.

It meant nothing anyway, they each called each other cute all the time.

With that thought and the peaceful sight of Jung Hoseok, Yoongi fell into dreamland into a deep sleep, softly snoring himself.

One Week Later

Yoongi went into J-Hope's room, throwing the door open and walking quickly over to him. "Hey." J-Hope said, working on lyrics and too focused to turn his head.

"Hoseokie." Yoongi stood next to him, fidgeting with his fingers. "Hm..." J-Hope finished the lyric sentence and looked up at the person, and saw Yoongi. "Um, can we cuddle?"

J-Hope was taken back at what Yoongi had said. Yoongi looked back at J-Hope with a serious expression, moving his feet too. "Are you okay?" J-Hope asked. He knew that if Yoongi wanted or was planning to cut, he would rub or scratch his wrists over the previous marks there. He wasn't doing that...what was wrong?

"Um..." Yoongi licked his lips and looked around J-Hope's room. "Can I have that hoodie too?" He asked, pointing to the black hoodie in the corner of the room. "I- hyung, it's dirty." J-Hope turned around. "Scale one to ten, one being clean and ten being you rolled around in mud dirty?" Yoongi asked, his eyes glued to the hoodie. "Three- why?" J-Hope asked in pure confusion. "I worked out with Jungkook-ah in it-" "I want it." Yoongi left J-Hope's side and went to the corner of his room, taking his shirt off and slipping J-Hope's hoodie over his head.

J-Hope was majorly confused...

"Can we cuddle?" Yoongi sat down on J-Hope's bed. "What's...going on, hyung?" J-Hope asked. "It's cool if not, but I wanted to also sleep in your bed." Yoongi mumbled and moved back closer to the head of the bed. "Okay." J-Hope stood up, abandoning his lyrics and sitting next to Yoongi. He wrapped an arm around Yoongi's shoulders and hugged him, still smelling the faint scent of his sweat from a few days ago.

"Would it make you uncomfortable if I took my pants off?" Yoongi asked. "Not at all..." J-Hope answered in confusion, and without a second of hesitation Yoongi stated to take his blue jeans off.

"Lack of clothes comforts me." Yoongi admitted and cuddled close against J-Hope. "That's okay." J-Hope smiled, still very confused. "I know Kook-ah does it too." He added on. He wanted Yoongi to explain what was going on.

But Yoongi just stayed there for a few minutes, cuddled close to J-Hope with his eyes closed. J-Hope admired Yoongi's thighs, they were cute to him and the perfect size for lap-sitting.

Not in a dirty way, obviously...........pffft, no.

J-Hope sat with Yoongi cuddled into his side, his own black hoodie dressing the elder and his eyelids covering his big brown eyes. "I'm gonna move." Yoongi stated before he sat up and moved onto J-Hope's lap, spreading his legs around his waist and koala-hugging him with his arms around his neck. "Okay..." J-Hope rested his hands around Yoongi's hips so he wouldn't fall backwards. Yoongi buried his face in J-Hope's neck, trying not to cry.

"This is my safe place, Hoseokie." Yoongi whispered since he was so close to J-Hope's ear; he didn't want to hurt him. J-Hope found himself smiling. "I make you feel safe?" He asked, about to tease- but then he realized he probably shouldn't. "Mhm." Yoongi hummed and nodded, playing softly with J-Hope's hair. "I would say you make me happy too, but, then you would make a Hope World joke." He chuckled. "Maybe I would, maybe I wouldn't." J-Hope laughed. "You would say, 'I'm your hope, you're my hope, I'm J-Hope', I know you better than you know yourself." Yoongi shook his head. "That is something I would say." J-Hope laughed.

"Plus, I do still hate you for making me happy all the time and making me feel better." Yoongi rested his head on J-Hope's shoulder, moving his legs to wrap them around the younger's waist.

"Right now I'm happy...with you."

"Good..."

"And comfy- you relax me." Yoongi laughed. "Do want a massage and some ocean sounds?" J-Hope joked. "You'd do that for me~?" Yoongi leaned back to look J-Hope in the eyes. "No." J-Hope laughed. "Where's the love?!" Yoongi gently hit him, moving around on his lap in a fit. "I still love you, hyung!" J-Hope laughed and defended himself against Yoongi's hands. "Whatever." Yoongi went back to the position he was in.

"I love you too, weirdo."

"Aw~ I love the nicknames you give me!"

"Would b*tch be cute to you?"

"Yes."

"Hoe?"

"Hoeseok."

"Whore?"

"That's mean."

"I love you Hoseokie~"

"I love that one!"