"My mind told me to kill myself..."
I look down.
I am so
Ashamed
Of myself.
But really,
My mind had created
This monster
Out of me.
"...But I don't wanna kill myself, Frankie!"
I start
Sobbing
In his arms.
I know my eyeliner is smearing
Because my eyes are stinging.
"Frankie, I don't know what's wrong with me. They were all I could think about while doing the dishes.
I want me dead."
It was the bad I that wanted this.
Or maybe I'm the bad I and
I'm just a parasite to the good I.
Frank.
Focus on Frank.
"Gerard, calm down."
"I don't know who I am Frank. I can't tell what is real about me."
He holds my hands, "Gerard, I'm gonna get you help. I promise."
"Just make them go away..." I was begging.
Begging and begging and begging and begging.
And he cried too because
He knew
There was nothing he could do.
Why did this happen just before Mikey called?
I was so sad
And I was so confused
But at the same time I was
Excited as eager to see
My little brother.
It was my fault,
However,
As to why this happened.
I don't get myself anymore.
I demand one thing from
Myself,
Then I demand the exact
Opposite.
I'm a contradiction
In human form.
"Does my eyeliner look okay?"
He examines me.
"It's really smeared."
And he sweeps the makeup back into place,
"Better."
He kept a smile through that.
I sweep his back too,
"Your's looks weird too."
I don't know
How I feel right now.
I'm okay,
But I'm not.
I can feel Frank's heart beating.
Gerard, do something!
"You're beautiful." I tell him,
Then
Lay my lips
On his.
I hear knocking.
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Sanity (Frerard)
Fanfiction"And what I felt was more than thumping. I felt his love for me. and I think he loves me with his soul too." .*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*. •Warning: Triggers • Drug Use • Soft Sexual Content • .*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.
