I was okay,
When the day
Had turned to the evening.
Unexpectedly,
I received a call from Frankie.
Something wasn't right.
I could tell
He had been crying.
"Frankie, are you okay?"
"I'm fine- just-"
"Stop lying." I told him, "tell me why you were crying. I can hear it in your voice."
"I just miss you." he tells me,
"Gerard, I'm homesick and I can't even have fun with the guys in the band anymore."
"But isn't this what you wanted?? You can finish this tour, I know you're strong enough to."
I put more confidence in that than the confidence I give myself.
Nice going Gerard.
"It is what I want, but it feels like a part of me of missing without you here, but playing my guitar makes all that go away.
I thought you'd be lonely, but in fact, I'm the one getting lonely."
"Then play, Frank.
Play your guitar until the loneliness goes away."
He needed it.
It provided him a therapy.
"...I can't."
"Why not?"
"It's two AM and everyone is asleep."
I checked the time.
11:00 PM for me.
"Then you should sleep too."
"I can't because I can't stop thinking about you. Do you miss me too?"
"Of course I do, Frankie! Why wouldn't I?"
"I-
I don't know..."
There was a silence that went on for minutes.
And that makes another
Failed attempt to break it.
It's made me come to realize
That it really is my place to stay silent.
I was meant to listen,
Not act.
"...Gerard?" His voice cracked.
It was so brittle.
It panicked me a bit.
"Frank?" I said.
I thought saying his name,
Would calm him down.
"I like it when you sing."
"Thanks."
"Do you think you can sing me to sleep?"
I was shocked a little, but I told him,
"Yeah, but-
What about you turning your phone off?"
"I'll just let it die while I sleep. Gerard, please. Just sing a song to me, any song. It can be a Lana Del Rey song, or just something random. I don't care. I just want your voice to be the last thing I hear."
"Okay," I told him.
I was nervous.
I knew he adored my singing voice though.
"Uhh..." I said.
"Anything, please?"
I hope he likes Johnny Cash.
"...You are my sunshine,
my only sunshine.
You make me happy,
when times are grey.
You have no clue
how much I love you,
please don't take
my sunshine
away."
I repeated those same lyrics even when it was clear he had fallen asleep.
And I continued
Until I heard that phone beep.
-
Honestly that's the only Johnny Cash song I know.
lol I'm trash.
But it's so sad omg like I know the whole song.
-Jenna
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Sanity (Frerard)
Fanfiction"And what I felt was more than thumping. I felt his love for me. and I think he loves me with his soul too." .*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*. •Warning: Triggers • Drug Use • Soft Sexual Content • .*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.*.
